i was trying not to get involved with all this but
was it nonsense? i don't think so
try being on the receiving end & treated like some sort of social leper
& ok a lot of it is my own fault & i take responsibility
for my actions ok!!
to come along & being given the cold shoulder all night
because of the way people judge you actions in the past
& still hold it against you
is fair enough, I'm not perfect & have apologised
on many many occasions
but then they do the exact same things as you
which is basically getting drunk as a lord & having a dam good time
isn't that a bit hypocritical?
the thing i object to most
is if people have a problem with me that's fine
but taking out on people who do actually talk to you get that shoulder as
well
& we're not just talking about simsey here isn't on
there were many things that happened to others on that night
which happened before during & after the gig
which i found hard to take & which i won't go into
& remember this time i was completely sober so i remember a hell of a lot
as for just sitting there
i really did try to get involved & have fun & hoped that
people were more forgiving, but alas that wasn't to be
as i was continually blanked by many
all i can say is there were some who were forgiving
& praised me on trying to make amends
there are some people who have stood by me no matter what for those people
i have nothing but respect & luv for them
& you will always shine like the diamonds you are
to finish on a voice of reason people
I'd really like to put this behind us
maybe it can't be done but i think it would be better
to get back to the way it was, with everyone being friendly
the dc full & especially for me the drink flowing freely etc
then to carry this on
.......remember little things mean a lot like a chat & a hello
we all make mistakes & we all have a past with each other
some of it great some of it not so great
& it may be true to say that i am involved
with some more than i am with others, but this goes the same for others on
the list as well
but as anyone who knows me will know, i have always had time for
anyone when they really have needed to talk
& all this click thing shouldn't matter,but like i said i was treated very
coldly by sustain people
just because sustain other people had a problem with me & they were there
friends
i always thought that we were a group who, apart from have good taste in
music
generally cared about each other & did look out & help one another
you know the responsibility goes both ways not only in my case
but with everyone
we have had some very great times in the past
& that's why we have met up with each other so many times
let's hope this blows over & we can again
i have had my say
if no-one ever wants to talk to me again fine
but don't take it out on others
scatty
luv to those crazy diamonds
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