I know what you mean. I don't look for such things either. Deep research
ultimately leads back to and through historical facts and archetypes to some
pretty primitive things. So symbolic and dreamlike at times that it can be
superficially mistaken for being made up or just plain crazy.
It is easier to laugh than to accept the fact that some people of great
success or popularity are scary individuals, fantastic liars, and devious,
far far worse than anyone we may know in our families or circles of
acquaintances. So it's all just too hard to believe.
For some, after a while, that type of mechanism no longer works.
And then, while every crazy story or scary symbol is not immediately seen as
absolute truth, the previously closed door has opened a bit and new things
may enter again. Much of it debatable, but the debate has shifted into a new
phase and learning can continue.
I'm not sure why that is a difficult or frightening concept to grasp. It's
probably just not a comfortable place to go. Many people prefer not to go
there.
