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Ive been working allot on the side with exterior perception and making nice progress.
When I went exterior in 82 it was different then compated to now. Walking driving, working on my job exterior. I was creation illusions that others could clearly see too. Now its normal being exterior. So much so that its the rule and feeling interior is the exception. Ive never been very good at seeing exterior amd never really cared. My human eye balls were good enough. So now im seeing more exterior. Its like a dream in many ways. PT life is like a dream when I see not with human eyes. Its gonna take some practice and getting use too. The floors and walls are confusing and I'll look at many things as my attention darts all over the place. I can see what ever I put my attention on and then its gone and something else appears. Or ill look at someone sideways like they are laying on a wall. Gravity , up and down, left and right, dont really work yet. Some times I need to go back and use human eyeballs and then recall what I just saw and try to understand what it was where it was who it was . Lol The other thing is that because im always exterior but to a lesser degree using human eyes, I dont feel the sensation of being exterior. But I know I am because of what I see without using my human eyes. Its not a dream because im not sleeping and its not my imagination because it looks diffetent and things are upside down or sideways and fleeting. The other thing thats becomming very real to me is that I dont consciously put postulates up. Like level five for example. Shit just happens. Somw times I know its my and other times its just shit that happens. In 2010 id be running RI in the mall courtyard. Tears running down my face, charge and sensation comming of in ways that are beyond my ability to communicate to others. Then 15 women appear and sit with me in the courtyard. All hotties in thier twenties and im no fashion model at age 52 with a pot belly but they were all there because of me. None of them spoke to me but they all had thier attention on me and were there because of me. Some times others would walk up to me and id send them away and theyd walk away. I wouldnt look at then or speak. Its was my will. This was all level 3 days too. Hadn't gor to 4 or 5 yet. So unlike level 5, postulates do not need to be a conscious matter. Not sure if that's good or not. Probably good but control of ones desires is good thing to have too. To be continued Slim : )
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