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Hi Colleen Congratulations on a very productive session!
Thanks for sharing it, Sincerely Pete Sent from my iPad > On Oct 5, 2014, at 7:02 AM, "Colleen K. Peltomaa" <[email protected]> > wrote: > > ************* > The following message is relayed to you by [email protected] > ************ > Okay, this is the real deal as you will see when you read this win I had last > night with using Trom Level 4 commands followed up by RI: > > Level 4 session with auditor rudely stripped away big chunk of ego-protective > and limiting way-of-being. Appears to have been picked up from Mother (which > she picked up from her mother, etc.). > > Kept repeating "I Know" .... it had already started to come apart in my solo > work, and I was ready for it, but still lots of tears ("I'm melting, I'm > melting" - from "Wizard of Oz") and feeling very naked, soft - no longer > brittle and hard - defenseless. Feelings of fear and loss. > > Then for balance, ran "I don't know" which brought up scenes of degradation - > both done to me and what I had done to others and had been my "reason why" > for keeping the armor in place. Flipping back and forth between arrogance > and self-deprecation. > > Felt like crossing of the Rubicon -- no ships or bridges to go back -- and > the game is now exposed and I can't do that anymore, neither do I want to. > > I cannot say the whole issue is 100% resolved, but am more resolved to get on > with my "exit, stage left" plan -- doing my practices. Truthfully, I would > appreciate more sessions like that, in spite of the death throes. > > Now, that is something new I probably have not done for a few eons - actually > clear the mind. I feel that when I first cracked from the Egg, I left the > starting gate with a strong "something's just not right here" feeling and am > finally starting to deal with it. > > I know it was a long time ago but it has always been with me through > existence as if it had happened today. Today is all that counts. Need to > learn to put the past back into the past...to let go like I did last night. > > I love and trust my practices even more. > > My follow-up RI was awesome too: I created the importance of a "silent > person" and kept putting that around me until I felt comfortable /resolved. > I saw how that silence is within me, and can optionally be expressed as a > beingness, however the zero within me is built over with layers of stuck > postulates. (RI is a crucial component of this practice) > > Now I am ready to do the other side and have another create an importance, > and wanted to get this posted before the day got busy. > > A imparted insight from my auditor re "peacefulness of just being": ... > > "as long as you are not concerned in any way by how that beingness is being" > > > _______________________________________________ > Trom mailing list > [email protected] > http://lists.newciv.org/mailman/listinfo/trom
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