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*11August15 Toward Vanishing the Mind*
Have established a routine of creative visualization for self and others - in the a.m. and sometimes during the daily break if I feel wanting-ness. Partner coming along with his life repair work and I do notice major improvements in his attitude towards life. We are focusing in on Idenics as a gradient undercut or aid for Dennis' practices. Both practices get the person to look at the past and break it off from being stuck in the present. Both practices get the person to look at their goal sets and resolve them, further discreating the mind. [email me for complete Idenics material] Idenics does not get the being to re-view his original goal sets (the "To Know" matrix) thus Dennis' work and practices still need to be run to accomplish the complete discreation of the mind. In my last Idenics session a few days ago and since then I notice a calmer attitude toward my partner. This session made me take another look at how I was before an incident as a toddler and how I chose to be after the incident, and I saw how I got unconsciously stuck in that "after-overwhelm" postulated identity as a way to handle certain interactions. I saw the dwindling spiral of self-limitation from my prior postulated identity. Now that that is unfixed I find I have not around me the same circumstances that were in that incident and so I don't feel a need to reactively respond to similarities because now I can see what is different now from what was then, and in fact the "then" incident does not even seem to come up in that respect. Towards the end of the session I saw some original games being played whereby the childhood incident was simply a continuation and really not that important at all compared with the larger importances I held even before bodies existed, and in that original incident I simply had to return to a complementary interaction - such as demonstrated in an animated Tao symbol. Seeing the larger and earlier scene helped me to currently feel more complementary with life. In Idenics one is also asked to do creative work so as to fill the remaining mind's hunger for importances. Knowing now how wonky I can get if I don't do enough creation of self-generated importances after a discreation of mindstuff, I make sure I do the "Repair of Importance" as instructed by Dennis as a morning routine. I always get big yawns doing it and then brighten up and the world around me brightens too. I'm also still honoring the body-mind connection and staying close to a frugivore diet which I believe aligns with the "Saatvic" diet anciently recommended for meditators. So, to sum, instead of continuing into a tighter and tighter spiral or fractal of increasingly limited options I am moving backwards through the created spiral, discreating the fixed mental limitations and feeling more "my old self" which is still mind stuff - no delusions about that. And so the goal this lifetime is to continue until I have reached a certainty of "No Mind" and wiser for the experience, fully realizing the nature of (and futility of) everything I've been striving for all this lifetime and these eons of existence. I am gaining confidence that I can DIY my Idenics sessions although they run better when my clearing partner is present to keep me from swimming and keep me on track. Using the self-enquiry of Idenics is an aid to Dennis' Level Three which would mean I am a graduate of Level Two with which I struggled for quite a time and finally found my peace with it after re-reading and re-reading Dennis instructs. If while running Idenics on myself I get stuck in an incident I have the resource to run some Level Two on it. I also have the resource of the Six-Directions command when scenes get stuck or too vague. I'm very very appreciative Dennis brought home to me the importance of viewing the past with my eyes open to present environment: that right there is Level Two. Even with eyes open, if I start swimming in the importances of an incident the present environment starts to fade away which is why it is necessary to have these tools and guidances. I lived briefly with someone who was psychotic and I would notice that they were almost continually not looking at the present environment but rather looking at something from the past. For example if there was a door here and now they were not seeing that door but perhaps a prison door from a past incident and that is why one might wish to cultivate compassion for the neurotic and insane, not to mention good practices to help bring them into seeing and responding to their present environment. Colleen
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