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Hi TROMmers,
I had pondered for some time if time-breaking, as proposed
by Dennis, could be expanded somehow.
Dennis already had provided - at least for L2 more than
two gradients.
He suggested to start with light scenes first.
And take objects before going on with persons for the purpose
of gradients.
I figured that placing a past scene simultaneously to
present time (PT), in order to time-break it by comparing
them to each other, is only a special case of manipulating
consciously time and the time-track.
Further I had reason to believe that the time track is only
an apparency and in actuality all "time-lines" happen to
be "simultaneously", so to speak.
(I only mention that for the record. It was just part
of my realization process, but may seem out of context for
some readers.)
I was wondering if it could be beneficial, in terms of
therapeutical value, to do the following time-break
variants:
a) Between a _past_ scene and another _past_ scene.
Preferable scenes containing the same object/person a PC
might be interested in. One of the scenes should be characterized
by having a less positive or even a negative tone attached to
it, while the other scene has a positive emanation.
b) Between a past scene and a mocked-up future scene.
Again with the same object(s)/person(s) involved.
The usefulness of this variant could be in case someone
has difficulties to come up with enough positive scenes in
the past.
Of course several combinations with even more than just two
scenes of 'past - PT - future' compared simultaneously
would be conceivable. However, I do not see much use for this
because more than two can always be broken down into pairs.
Pairs are usually easier to handle. The difference is only in
processing time (like in a computer CPU where tasks can worked
off parallel (more than one at a time) or in serial mode (one
at a time). I did not test this.
Before the report thereof follows below, I want to make the
following disclaimer:
What worked for me to some extent might not work for you.
Nothing I wrote does in any way replace or render void what
Dennis wrote in the TROM materials. At best this might be
a variant or additional gradient that might be worth testing.
I have only tested it on me and only for two different kind
of incidents up to now. That is of course not sufficient to
make any claims regarding workability. I provide this as is.
Feel free to apply it at your own risk.
(Anyhow, feedback and criticism of all kind is welcome.)
Here is the report:
The first incident was a slight annoyance manifesting itself
in a wandering off of some of my attention units involuntarily
to that incident which had occurred the other day.
The incident was a communication from an otherwise likable
entity which had an unusual high entheta content in terms of
offensive language in it. Being no stranger to this mode of
speech I did not care about the lingo itself, but the
contrast of it to the hitherto known profile of that person
made me curious (A mystery draws attention to it).
I used method a) here. It was easy to place that incident
near an incident with the same entity where the communication
was benevolent and on a high tone.
{At first I was not sure if the PT scene would introduce interference
(the room I was in, was very bright from the sunny daylight coming in
through the windows; that made PT even more prominent). So I closed
my eyes a little later to shut that influence out.}
It took some minutes to visualize the other entity in two or three
"good" scenes and comparing simultaneously to the "ugly" scene.
I finally mocked-up a scene in the future with the other being and
me, being in good comm..
I felt moving up from weak interest to strong interest and the other
entity appeared in a brighter (more positive) light. I felt the
attention releasing.
The realization was, that this person (and that is true
for any person) is infinitely many-fold. This being probably was in a
bad mood at that particular instant and from his viewpoint there had
been reasons to be that way.
Being content with this result so far, I stopped in order to look for
something else.
I came up with a close relative.
It surprised me a bit that I found it appeared difficult at first,
to find positive events with that person. Finally I found one, only
to abandon it because I thought the happiness which she emanated
therein was not genuine.
Another - really good one - came to mind (an incident where she was
talking to me about her childhood and how life was there at her home).
This was a rather lively and interesting account because it provided me a
first-hand insight into a situation not known to me. And it was not the
kind of subject that gave rise to controversy).
I used it to time-break it with one other past incident with her, that
contained much gloating.
Then another one which had to do with "to live a lie". I ran them for a
minute or so. Felt not enthusiastic but fine.
I was looking for other positive things which I could use for comparison
purposes. Most of the stuff was more or less medium or low tone. A relative
comparison would have been possible of course, but I was looking for
something
at least in the range of 3.0 to 3.5 on the scale.
So I resorted to method b) (mock-up of future potential events with that
person
or thing). I wanted a scenario with high probability. Well, that person
could easily still live ten years or more, but will she ever change?
(I could have invented some kind of enlightment-event in her near future.
But that did not appeal much to me for lack of likelihood.)
Instead I opted for a scenario where she was reincarnated in a
future lifetime.
I visualized her as a toddler happily crawling on a fluffy carpet (a fur it
actually was) in front of an open fireplace. She emanated a strong radiance
of positive emotions; very likable. I dwelt with that scene for some time
being so immersed into it, that I almost forgot to put up the
"negative" scene beside it. I did that eventually and the scenes
"leveled-out"
against each other. A sense of relativity and realism came over me. Quite
pleasant. I kept the images for some seconds longer before I ended the
session.
I was happy with the result so far despite the awareness that
no serious manifestations of discharges had occurred. (It had not actually
been
the purpose for that little run anyway.)
I felt calm and was content with that, already busy with creating the text
of
this report in my mind - which I'm writing down now, as long as the
memories
are fresh.
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Update:
This I write at the day after the account above:
I feel really enthusiastic today. Do not know if I should attribute it
to the yesterday small session (it was only meant to be a test and an
attempt
to repair the rudiments for that particular day - and that it did quite
well.)
So it might be, that my state today is not related, or related solely,
to the activity described above.
However that may be, I realized the following: (I guess the realization
had been
already in its "birth canal" for quite some time.)
Without going too much into its details; it has to do with humor and
seriousness.
Ron once said, that communication is the universal solvent.
May be right or wrong. If he was right then the sense for humor sure is the
second best solvent :-)
There was, and still is, much talk and writing about the "trap" and being
"trapped". Well, that is ok, but consider that whenever you entertain the
idea
of: "being in a trap" - wherever else could you be then, but in a trap?
On a gradient:
I stop calling it a trap now as a first step. I call it an "experimental
ground"
(play ground if you like that better) which is designed for that purpose:
to collect experiences.
This corollary attributes therapeutic value to life itself, doesn't it?
By inference, anything ever made in the context of life (aside from MEST,
objects,
a.s.o. this would include tech, religions, philosophies, ... is part of the
over-all experience (or learning about self). Thus makes
everything else _IN_ life junior to that life at hand :-)
Robin
P.S.:
You ever heard of king Midas - the guy who turned into gold everything he
touched. In the story it does not work out too well for him. Guess, because
it's in the physical realm. Never the less it works pretty good in the
non-physical.
Touch whatever sh.. is on your mind, and it can turn into something a lot
better than gold :-)
Update 2:
On further testing I've seen that it is beneficial to give attention
to the differences and similarities of one's own attitudes, intentions,
emotions, strategies, methods, ... deployed in the "positive" and
"negative"
incidents. That analysis is interesting in regard of the learning value of
the
"negative" experiences (which is thereby converted into something
beneficial).
Secondly, this provides insight in usability of certain strategies,
intentions,
... in relation to particular situations, action and reaction thereof.
Robin
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