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Hi Trommers,
I just hit 150 hours on level 2 the last week, so I thought I summarize my experiences. Here you can find my previous write up: http://lists.newciv.org/ pipermail/trom/2016-March/005194.html My Goal for this year is to reach 100 hours with TROM (200 hours altogether), most probably I will do all of it on level 2. I'm a bit behind schedule (it's almost September now, and still have 50 more hours to go), but I have much more free time now, so I hope I will be able to do it. I still do 1 hour sessions, try to do one every day. Still spend about 90% of my session time yawning and cleaning my nose (the excessive yawning causes my nose to run). I had zero wins, just endless suffering, but hey that's just fine, I'm masochistic. Previously I always had trouble to find events that produce change (= yawning in my case), now it is very easy. I just go back in the morning and select a total random stranger I saw on the street in the morning, and that gives me somewhere between 30 to 60 minutes of yawning. Then when the yawning is gone, run RI then I pull out the level 4 list (Robin's advice on my previous email, thanks), and just try to use the chart to find another event, that I can run out. It usually runs out faster than the not charged morning event. Can somebody tell me why the hell am I yawning for 30 minutes on timebreaking a random stranger ??? There can be zero charge on an event like this, then why am I yawning ??? I run RI as per the book. RI had never had much effect on me. I run it, it gets very very boring within a few minutes. I know this not because I feel bored, but because my attention wanders away, I continue RI, attention wanders again, and after I few minutes I just give up on RI, and do the timebreaking or finish the session. E-meter wise I usually start with a tone arm between 4.5 and 3.5. It goes down to 3 in a few minutes, and after about 20 minutes it reaches 2. Sometimes I go down to 1.6 which is very low, and I know, I shouldn't go below 2. Sometimes I tried to run RI for 15 minutes to move the tone arm back. After 15 minutes I can push back the tone arm to 2.5 or 3.5, but that doesn't help much, a few minutes of timebreaking and I loose it all again, so I don't do that any more. My biggest problem is still motivation. I have no wins at all. No realizations. No Cognitions. Just yawning and suffering. So every session must start from brute force willpower. If I would have just a little gain, the whole process would carry on itself. Any advice for you guys? Thanks, Vorb
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