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Hi Trommers,
I just finished another 50 hours of TROM auditing, so it's time to report it :) You can read my previous reports here: 100 hours: http://lists.newciv.org/pipermail/trom/2016-March/005194.html 150 hours: http://lists.newciv.org/pipermail/trom/2016-August/005376.html 200 hours: http://lists.newciv.org/pipermail/trom/2016-November/005538.html When doing TROM, it seems that every 20-30 hours there is a change of auditing characteristics in my case. So this 50 hours can also be broken into 2 different parts. I will write a definite time, but these things start to happen unnoticed by me, and go into full effect in 5-10 hours. TROM From 200 - 225 hours First of all I'm still yawning like crazy, about 80-90% of the time. Almost immediately after I wrote my last report, there was a change. What I was doing was level 5, put the postulates into the wall, wait until events show up, then immediately drop down to level 2 and timebreak them, but in this period I could no longer timebreak events. Whenever and event showed up, and I tried to timebreak it, the yawning stopped and soon I wandered away. So after many hours I completely given up on trying to timebreak. I was just running level 5, put out some postulates, and just see the myriad of events/faces/sounds that come one after the other. This kept my yawning the whole time. Interesting to note, that those events were not necessary the contents of my memory. An example: I'm running the I must know leg, and just imagine situations when I am saying to somebody: Why don't you tell me, in different tones (like saying it angrily, sadly, etc). So oftentimes I was just imagining situations, but the yawning was just coming, so I continued. Of course I also run a lot of memories of mine. TROM from 225-250 hours (and still going on) I got angry in sessions, but I was still yawning. This was the worst. In the last 2 months I managed to increase my daily TROM time from 1 hour/day to 2 hours/day. Well, I had to give that up. Feeling the anger for 1 hour totally depleted me emotionally. I started to yell and shout during sessions, just to release that energy somehow. Interesting that any person I was running I got angry with him/her. The need to timebreak returned and it worked again. Hell there was an event I was timebreaking for almost 3 hours, which brings me to another change: perception. I just noticed that all the time before, I wasn't viewing the events from my viewpoint but from an exterior point. As soon as I started to view the event from how I actually saw it, the yawning and the anger go much stronger. Also perceptions got better, seeing more details, actually hearing people smelling odors returned to me. I don't claim to have photographic memory, I'm very far from there, but when I timebreak and event, after some time there may come an increase in perception, which forces more yawning and more anger. So I have to repeat timebreaking as many times as new perceptions come in. My auditor says, that this is very good. My ability to confront increases so my reactive mind now throws up the next emotional level after boredom which is anger. So next should come fear, terror and then sadness and so on. I'm traveling down the tone scale. I never thought about it that way. That's about it for now. Since I moved back to 1 hour/day my next 50 hours will probably take 2-3 months to complete, unless I learn to confront anger more. Any comments / advices are welcome! Until then, happy tromming everybody: The Vorb
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