I have been in Christ, contrary to popular belief, 47 years, now. I
continue to sin for a number of reasons (Rom 7:25 and I john 1:8
and Roms 3:23). but my conscience is offended and I continue to confess
my carnality to the Lord, knowing full well that He wants me to be
His. My sin is, in fact, intentional (nearly all sin is done
on purpose), but it is never, in my mind, a statement of rebellion to the
leadership of God and His blessings. but one day, a woman comes into my life, other than my wife,
who becomes much more than I can or want to deal with (in terms of
temptation). Finally, after a couple of years of courting the
heat of this temptation, I finally say out loud and with meaning,
"To hell with it all." I not only dump my wife and
my children, I knowingly make a decision to enter a practice of sin
with the full intent of rejecting God's partnership. It is
not a technical thing, this willful sinning. What has
happened and why their remains no continuing sacrifice for my sinning is that I
have rejected God and His sacrifice. I have rejected the
Cross. That is what I have in my mind when I say or think
"rebellion."
John
John, I hope this is not a description of
yourself, but an allegorical reference of some kind. It’s a bit
confusing. Izzy
