Theresa and Jimi: As the father of five kids and four grandkids, I cannot
begin to imagine what you must be going through. And I was keep you ALL in
my thoughts and prayers, and especially your daughter. As for Amanda, I know
you want to know everything, and try to help in anyway you can, but as hard
as it may be, you may just have to let her come to terms with it, and then
she'll open up to you I'm sure. I may be totally wrong, but that's what it
sounds like to me that she is going through right now. I cannot imagine
what Amanda must be going through, having a doc tell you this and at that
age to boot. I'm sure her mind is spinning a million miles an hour, and she
is probably going through one of the five stages of grief, and that being
"denial". Ppl think "if I don't think or talk about it, it will go away".
And while I know every minute, hour, and day counts towards getting her the
best care possible, I'm afraid you're going to let her get through this
"denial" stage on her own, and unfortunately, in her own time. I'm saying
these things as an "outsider looking in" and can see things like this
probably clearer than you can right now, and I know that must make is a
thousand times harder on you guys as well.
I did, however, have a "quarter sized spot " on my left lung about 20
years ago that my doc at the time was sure was cancer, and God healed it
just like that, am I'll be praying that he'll doo the same for your
daughter. Or, that he'll allow the docs to use their knowledge that HE gave
them, to find a cure and have it happen that way. There is a caring bunch
of ppl on this list and I can tell you that many prayers will be going up on
behalf of the whole family as I said, but especially for Amanda. God Bless,
Chuck, Billie, and Family
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From: "Jimi AKA Desert Eagle" <[email protected]>
To: "Desert Eagle" <[email protected]>
Sent: Tuesday, March 13, 2012 9:17 PM
Subject: [VFB] Update on Amanda
Sorry folks I have not updated everyone on Amanda, Things have been
"Interesting" around here to say the least.
She refuses to, and demands that everyone that talks to her not us the "C",
(Cancer), word at all in addressing her. She refuses to talk to us at all
about it. Her comment is, "I'm Fine", don't bully me. She has said that she
will refuse the "Chemical, Cut and Burn" approach to it.
Dad has started a never ending search for information, and alternatives.
Thanks to those that gave me input and links to information. The hard part
will be presenting any information to Amanda, and getting here to at least
look at it and consider it. For me, many late nights and early mornings
spent researching and downloading information, reading it, and printing a
bunch of it out to put into note books so I am not tied to the computer all
the time and I can go out to the medicine wheel garden we are making for
quiet and solitude. Best I can do now.
Theresa was heading down there to see her yesterday, but got shut down and
turned back because Amanda said she did not have time to talk to her mom, or
me right now. She says she is busy studying for the MCAT test and doesn't
have time for US right now. Theresa was heeding down there today and again,
curt, don't bother me texts turned her around again.
She has "Promised to come down Thursday and go back Sunday, so we put some
money in her account for her travel. One thing that really has us concerned
is that "She doesn't like to drive or make road trips anymore", For anyone
that knows her, she used to love to travel, there was no distance to far for
her and her friends to go. This is beyond a 180, it is totally out of
character for her and has her mom and me not only concerned, but incredibly
worried.
We do know that she had to get "All New Clothes", she went from a size 5/6
to a 1/0 between Thanksgiving and Christmas. Needless to say, that was a
shock to us at Christmas, so she had to tell us a bit, "There is a
possibility" was all she would say.
I am going to turn it over to Theresa and let her fill you in on what she
knows. She tells me, but for some reason I am having a hard time
comprehending what has happened, and the only way I adjust to it is to find
something to try and keep my hands and mind busy. Theresa cries a lot, I
tend to hold it in until I cant anymore and have to go to the north side of
the property so I can ell a bit and cry it out. A dad should never have the
opportunity to outlive his daughter. I haven't given up, but it is hard for
me when I don't have answers to needed questions.
Here is Theresa, I need to take a brake for a bit. BTW, I can not tell you
all how much your prayers and well wishes are felt and appreciated.
jimi has covered much of it.....she and I were texting pretty heavy
yesterday-----I got a little irritated at her and kind of cornered her
somewhat. She says mom it's not as bad as everyone thinks.....the docs
aren't concerned about the spots on the liver and the brain.....I am going
to have surgery and I will let you know when I am going to the doc next.Of
course I was caught off guard with this and I didn't ask her what the
surgery was going to be on. so we continued texting and all and I I said
Amanda can you put me on your hippa so I will no what's going on....she in
no uncertain terms said she doesn't want me on it....ok..What am I to think?
She and I were so close andthis year has been rough with us---I would love
for us to be close again----especially now----well that's all I know >
Christie my friend is going to Abilene next week and if Amanda doesn't come
home Thursday I will go up next week with Christie.....that is just all
there is to it. it is past time for a face to face.
“Before a standing army can rule, the people must be disarmed; as they are
in almost every kingdom of Europe. The supreme power in America cannot
enforce unjust laws by the sword; because the whole body of the people are
armed, and constitute a force superior to any band of regular troops that
can be, on any pretence, raised in the United States.”
Noah Webster
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be a
true patriot, not the shooting only, but the history lesson you will learn
about "WHY" you have the "Freedom" that you do enjoy now.
Jimi
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