I was struck by something Jed recently said about Rich Murray's train-of-thought concerning the on-going Rossi's saga.
Jed sed: > [Rich Murray] will grasp at any straw to avoid facing the truth. The following personal commentary might seem a bit convoluted, and maybe even a bit too personal for inclusion here. However, Since Mr. Murray has courageously chosen to reveal a few of his prior mistakes in life I felt it was ok to continue with a few additional personal thoughts of my own, particularly since I too have made many mistakes in my life. (...and like, who hasn't.) In any case, I hope a few here will find some of the following "sermon" useful on some level. <Sunday's Sermon> Regarding the on-going Rossi debate I don't think Rich's primary concerns has really been about the need to "face the truth", insofar as Mr. Rothwell indelicately put it in. Actually that goes for the entire CF Saga as well. I think it has far more to do with a very legitimate quest on Rich Murray's part to find what I would call: A Separate Peace-Of-Mind. Just maybe, now... I think I have a better understanding of where Rich is coming from. It took a while for Mr. Murray's Higher Quest to sink into my dense skull. For many us who earlier in our lives lived through a string chaotic passages filled with broken promises and bitter self-inflicted disappointments there can come a time when we begin to long for a place of calm stability, a soothing State of Existence far away from all the chaos we have had to endure. We seek Peace-Of-Mind. I suspect one of the most profound truths a human being can stumble across in our all-too-brief and chaotic lives is the awareness that the only true happiness that lasts is the kind that comes from letting go of all of our external attachments, hopes, and desires. This is not an easy lesson to learn. It certainly hasn't been an easy one for me. It seems to go against the very nature and fiber of ourselves - to let go of all of our attachments. We fear that letting will threaten our sense of identity, who we "think" we are. We fear we will be stripped down beyond the core of ourselves, to become utterly naked. Nevertheless, we have to be willing to face the terror of literally not knowing who the "I" of me really is, what makes "I" survive in the external world. Those who find a way to let go of themselves either through conscious intent or through accidental circumstances, they can encounter rare opportunity to experience, perhaps briefly, a profound Inner Peace-Of-Mind. It is a Peace-Of-Mind that suggests a profound realization that they really don't need all of those external attachments to things in order to be really happy about themselves and how they operate with the chaotic world we have created. This Inner Peace-Of-Mind tells them everything they really need in order to be simply happy comes from within. Perhaps the biggest cosmic joke of all is the realization that all we really need in order to be happy had always been within Ourselves - that it had been there from the beginning. We just had to be willing to let go of all the layers of psychological camouflage we have cocooned ourselves within. OK, so much for all the of that transcendent Eckhart Tolle mumbo-jumbo. Back to practical matters. When individuals like Rich (and MYSELF as well, I might add) first begin to sense the existence of their own inner Peace-Of-Mind we still continue to feel the same strong desires to acquire all of the formal things in the external world that used to drive our sense of identity - what drove our sense of what we think we need in order to be happy. Truth of the matter is: Old habits die hard! To be honest I'm still feel quiet attached to the external world, and there is nothing wrong with that. I still pursue, sometimes quiet obsessively I might add!!!! It's more a matter of learning to know the difference between being completely overwhelmed by the attachments we have constructed around ourselves, versus becoming aware of the subtle difference where every second of the day, we can either chose or chose not to remain so involuntarily attached. Now, I ask the reader, look at the entire CF community. Look at Rossi & Co. as well... Look specifically at what many of these "external" organizations promise they will be able to do for the entire world - if... if... ONLY IF everyone will support their endeavors, and particularly in the financial sense. For many of us, like Rich & me, who are still a little new to experiencing that inner Peace-Of-Mind, it can make us feel a little uncomfortable. It is not at all that surprising that some of us would tend to look upon the CF community and all the outlandish external promises they claim can be fulfilled (all with proper funding, of course) from a slightly suspicious frame of reference. For one thing, repeatedly hearing their promises for a "better future" can ironically remind us all too much of the false promises we made to ourselves - unfulfilled promises that eventually shattered our own sense of who we thought we were. For some of us, under the circumstances of where we are still doing our best NOT to allow ourselves to once again succumb to the trap of investing too much of our identity in a future utopia, the best approach is simply NOT to buy into any of these outlandish Cold Fusion promises. It's not surprising that aspects of CF community can be perceived as a sort of False God. We remember all too painfully the folly we experienced at our own hands. Some of us also begin to worry that others will succumb to the same folly we ourselves encountered earlier in our checkered lives. Some of us feel obliged to warn others not to "buy into" similar spiels for which we ourselves had succumbed to. We say: Don't make the same mistakes we ourselves had made! All of these fantastic external claims coming from the CF community (and that certainly includes Rossi & Co.) they simply feel all-too-personal to us, especially the debacles we inflicted upon ourselves and others. Granted, it would appear that I have come to a different opinion or conclusion in regards to Rossi & Co, as compared to Rich's current stance. But no matter. To choose not put much stock in the external dreams for which CF promises the world is, I suspect, what Rich really needs to honor within himself - perhaps in order to help remind himself that his inner Peace-Of-Mind is still there - that his inner Peace-Of-Mind has nothing to do with the CF community. I would say, just let go of it all, especially the judgments. Simply tend to your own garden. Later, when hopefully we get a little more comfortable with sensing the permanence our own Inner Peace-Of-Mind, I think most of us can then allow our guard down a little more. We can then begin to enjoy our observations without constantly having to judge what it is we are trying to perceive with greater clarity. Simply watch in a free and spontaneous way, all in-the-moment - even with amusement at all the scrappy shenanigans constantly erupting within the CF field. We can begin to watch what's unfolding without feeling so personally vulnerable or susceptible to all of its seductive charms. Just go with the flow. I suspect Rich has sensed his Inner Peace-Of-Mind. I suspect Rich is diligently working to make sure that Peace-Of-Mind remains within the core of his transcendent Sense of Absolute Awareness. Granted, it might not be sensed much of the time. It sure as hell comes and goes for me... Most of the time, it's gone. ;-) But we still remember that calm Inner Peace-of-Mind. We know it's there somewhere... somewhere inside our "self". The tragic truth of the matter is that many on this planet never ever sense an Inner Peace-Of-Mind. Many in this world are never so lucky as Mr. Murray. </Sunday's Sermon> Regards, Steven Vincent Johnson www.OrionWorks.comwww.zazzle.com/orionworks
