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On Tue, May 17, 2016 at 3:44 PM, Chris Sherlock <chris.sherloc...@gmail.com>
wrote:

>
> I've just been blocked forever. I've been bullied, and I'm having suicidal
> thoughts.
>
> I don't know what to do now.
>
> Right now I'm reaching out to anyone who might listen.  I've been called
> obsessive, someone who attacks people, I've not been listened to and I've
> been lectured on policy by people who quote three letter shortcuts at me
> without reading the policy.
>
> An admin just told me that I had submitted too many kilobytes which
> violated some sort of policy. When I pointed out that half of the kilobytes
> were references I was ignored. When I pointed out that the one reverting me
> was deleting no contentious stuff I was told I was being contentious. When
> I pointed out I had been told I'm not allowed to use primary sources in any
> way and the policy was its ok but to use it with care, and all I was doing
> was checking a company directorship, I was ignored.
>
> I wrote your [[exploding whale]] article. I invented your [citation
> needed] tag. I started your admins noticeboard.
>
> But I'm not well, and nobody on Wikipedia seems to be kind. You are all so
> busy power tripping that you forget there is a real, live person on the
> other side. A person who is wounded. I haven't always been this depressed.
> Not anxious. I stupidly logged into my account yesterday, one that nobody
> knew I used, and tried to edit the Salim Mehajer article. I was surprised
> it wasn't there, but I've never been so obstructed I all my life. It's not
> even that there was a disagreement, it was like I wasn't worth anything. I
> spent hours of my time researching the article, trying to do a good job.
> But in an instant the material was ripped away, and I was called obsessed.
>
> That's not what I was called when I rewrote the [[USA PATRIOT Act]]
> article. People told me it was long, but they were encouraging. My hard
> work was appreciated.
>
> I've never attacked the subject of the article, Salim Mehajer. But when I
> was called obsessive, I guess something broke inside me. I reached badly
> and called the guy who called me obsessive a twit. Then I wrote a bitter
> article and posted it on my blog. You can read it here:
>
>
> http://randomtechnicalstuff.blogspot.com.au/2016/05/dont-bite-newbies-why-wikipedia-is-such.html
>
> Then I stewed. I couldn't stop thinking about how I'd tried to get a
> decent article sorted out again, but I just couldn't seem to get traction.
>
> I originally had taken material from the [[City of Auburn]] article that
> was about the individual. I should have realised it was partisan, and it
> was a bad judgement call. I write done more material, but it was far too
> negative. I guess o didn't see it that way at the time.
>
> I recall I went to bed and the next day I was accused of writing an attack
> article and an admin slapped on not one but two template telling me I was
> about to be blocked. Then I discovered the article had been deleted. Nobody
> had notified me. I couldn't work out what had happened. Then I realised it
> had been deleted.
>
> So I tried again. This time I started from scratch. I started to edit very
> carefully. I started with a paragraph stub which just very, very briefly
> noted Mehajor is a deputy mayor and property developer. I think I wrote a
> short paragraph Bout his wedding which was very notable. It's in the
> history.
>
> Then it was put up for deletion again. In the A7 category. I'm rusty at
> Wikipedia, sure, but what? A7? It was for notability. But, I thought, how?
> The man is highly significant! Not a day goes by without the media talking
> of his exploits!
>
> So I objected. The editor rounded on me. He's famous for being famous,
> like a Kardashian! he said. But I said, he was a deputy mayor and he's been
> in the Australian media extensively! It's not just his wedding (which was
> notorious) - it's his property deals, and his companies, and he got his
> entire council sacked! And he is in court all the time and is under an AFP
> investigation! That *is* notable!
>
> But, I was told, there's not enough In the article. I was referred to
> another acronym about notability. But I know about notability policy, I
> thought. It's about the subject, not the content of the article..,
> desperately I hunted through the policy git the section on this. I'd read
> it before, years ago. If the article was deleted before I got a chance to
> object, I'd be called a troll, or worse. I'd be blocked for recreating it.
> In the nick of time I found the section and objected, and I asked to have
> it put on Articles For Deletion. And I pointed out I was literally editing
> the article when it was almost deleted - because it didn't establish enough
> context. But, I thought, how do you establish context of the article is
> deleted midway through editing it?
>
> The editor took off the CSD template. I breathed a sigh of relief. Then
> they stick on a {{notability}} template. This, I was informed, meant that
> the article could be merged, redirected, or deleted if notability couldn't
> be determined. But, I thought - I just established that! I didn't want it
> to be deleted midway through editing, and redirecting would have been as
> bad. And merged and redirected to what? It was already redirected to [[City
> of Auburn Council#History]], but that was clearly wrong. No, it was going
> to be deleted. I objected, and eventually removed the template, to
> strenuous objections from the one who put it on. I suggested it be put up
> for deletion and offered to do it myself. But the editor seemed reluctant.
> So, I reasoned, well if they truly feel that way they list it for deletion.
> At least then we'll get consensus one way or another.
>
> So, now templates less but incomplete, I started to add material. I
> decided to start off with his early life. This was good, but every time I
> tried to add more material I found I was getting edit conflicts because
> that same editor appeared to have watchlisted the article. I sent the a
> message asking then to hold off editing. I also asked them not to remove
> huge swathes of information.
>
> Then I got to the bit where a court case was referred to. To establish
> context, I quoted both the widely reported words said by the accused and
> the defendant. I used a secondary source that was very reliable - the
> Australian ABC News website. This was summarily removed. The edit summary
> read BLP violation.
>
> Eh? I know what BLP is, but that can't be right. I asked why on the talk
> page. "It's because of BLPCRIME" they said. "You can't do it". But, I said,
> I don't want to summarise their words, that could look worse for Mehajer!
> And I need to explain the case fairly do the reader knows what it's
> about... I was told to read the policy. Grumbling, I read it to refresh my
> memory. It read that non-public figures should not have allegations put on
> articles. Well, I thought, this does t apply here - Mehajer is a very
> public figure and this was reported widely.
>
> And on and on it went. Every time I edited the article I would be edited
> as quickly. It was like I was being stalked. Eventually, however, the
> exasperation of that editor was too much. He listed the article on Requests
> For Comment. But, I thought, I remember RFC back in the day. We used to
> hash these things out on the talk page first! And normally there was some
> sort of compromise - line the opposing party would say "why not summarise
> it thusly" and you'd look at it and go "well, OK, but I'd summarise it like
> this". And the partite would come up with something reasonable. Not do this
> editor - it was no information on the case at all, just that there had been
> a case.
>
> So then things went very bad. He decided to ask at the Australisn
> Wikipedias Noticeboard. From there, a South Ausyrslusn editor turned up,
> took a look at the section that detailed vehicle incidents and just removed
> it. Then on the talk page he panned the edits as "obsessive" and "trivial".
> In fact, he was just getting started..,
>
> "the compilation of all the companies he's a director of, many of which
> are so non-notable the author has had to refer to business registration
> records, is an atrocious case of original research and absolutely does not
> belong in this article. These are such trivial details that no journalist
> has bothered to compile them in any of the tens of thousands of stories
> about him for a reason."
>
> I was gob smacked. I had sourced every one if the companies to a secondary
> source. One of the sources was an article in The Australian, a major Aussie
> newspaper. It pointed to a PDF which detailed a list of companies
> associated with Mehajer.
>
> And at this point we end at the beginning. I rage quit, then I was
> messages by an editor from Perth, who taunted me, telling me I had
> relevance deprivation syndrome. I was already feeling fragile, but this
> egged me on I suppose. If I'd been feeling less fragile I just would have
> let it go.
>
> So I did something inexcusable. I told the editor who had been stalking me
> what I thought of them. I swore at them and called them bad names. It was
> reverted.
>
> I continued editing. It was hell or high water! I knew if I could just ask
> them to explain there decisions I could get the article into shape. So I
> asked again why non-controversial material was removed. Nobody would
> answer. I put back material and wrote a long talk message. I was reverted
> with a response that didn't answer why it was a problem. I kept tweeting
> because there was nothing else I could do. Even important material, utterly
> non-controversial, was removed.
>
> Eventually, however, they started to suggest what the issues were. They
> said it was fine to include his traffic offenses, but it had to be cut
> down. But, I explained, it's actually only one sentence and I detailed what
> the offenses were otherwise it might give an impression his offenses were a
> lot worse than they were! I asked what they should be changed to. And, I
> pointed out, you still haven't explained why the other material is a
> violation of Biographies of Living People!
>
> There was no response. Instead, I was reverted. So I reverted again
> because no answer had been provided.
>
> Then I got a message. I was told that actually the admin hadn't read the
> material but he'd noticed that the total kilobytes of text had ballooned.
> But, I said on my talk page - half of that size is in references!
> Irrelevant, I was told. You aren't editing to consensus. If someone removes
> material, under no circumstances must you ready it until you discuss it.
>
> But the other editor is refusing to discuss it with me! Again I pointed
> out the bits that were being removed without being discussed. Tough I was
> told.
>
> In sheer bloody minded frustration I reverted the admin. Then I posted to
> the admins incident page pleading for someone to see reason. Then I got yet
> another message telling me I had been reported for edit warring.
>
> I tried post, got in the first bit to appeal. But then I tried list more,
> to plead my innocence and rotary to make someone understand I ha dead at
> the end if my tether. My wife came in and startled me. I literally jumped
> and yelled, severely startling her badly. I felt dreadful.
>
> Then I raced out of the house, got in my car and parked in a quiet spot. I
> posted to the only place I had left. A bitter post, stating who I had been
> and what I had contributed and what I had just been through.
>
> This wax reverted by the admin Nick-D, from Western Australia who banned
> my rage quitted account (whose passwords scrambled, so it's inaccessible
> anyway) and had my mobile IP address blocked got a week, though I had tried
> to explain I would be home later and it's best block my other IP address
> which is my NBN IP. It was, I had said in the message, a relief.
>
> But not only was this rolled back, but the user page was locked.
>
> My despair and humiliation is total. So here I sit, contemplating the mess
> my life is in and how it's not worth even the ability to edit Wikipedia,
> Wikipedia the project I loved and I gave do much if my time and date to. A
> project where I worked to gain consensus and wrote amazing article with
> others, and researched for and went to meet ups and borrow books from the
> library to ensure the world got the best possible information I could
> locate about a subject.
>
> I know I'm not well. I have fought this feeling for a decade. It's why I
> left the Tbsdy_lives account when Brad emailed me. At least then you gave
> me small degree of dignity, and deleted my user pages.
>
> There is no more dignity to be given me. I've used up my portion.
>
> And I sit here in my car and contemplate suicide. My despair is total.
> There is not a kind one amongst you. You have taken my right of appeal, my
> ability to protest and my dignity. You have let others mock me, and I have
> failed to contribute to Wikipedias great mission - one I feel so keenly.
>
> I failed. I'm not sure what I'm going to do next. I will drive, I don't
> know where. I pray my family forgives me.
>
> Chris
> Ta bu shi da yu
>
> Sent from my iPhone
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