Display all headers From: Bj�rnMagnhild�en v.5 <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> Date: Tue, 24 May 2005 15:07:52 +0200
Organization: smtp-mr.mobil.telenor.no Subject: conscience what can i do? start a new line? it's the same line, but broken. it's b71H:7 the same world. readability. which self-wysiwyg. what do you mean by b81H:6 broken? the crack is continuous. broken continuououously. modus. 6897012 b91H:6 wrap. when you leave me i'm left, when you're distant i'm further. love ba1H:7 is nothing, suffering is nothing, pain is nothing, except for bb1H:7 toothaches. we're in the shit. for pain you need pain reseptors and bc1H:2 processing centra, and for other things other things. frustration bd1H:6 follows. human petty. in the awesome shit. writing to anyone? why this? be1H:2 i wouldn't like to read it, predictable reaction. and the new, nothing bf1H:2 new, just attention. i had an idea about time proprietary, where the c01H:6 battle. there's no center in this. what could it be? between m and n? c11H:2 space? i can't stand this, i can't stand that, there isn't much left. c21H:6 what's the basis of joy? abundance, freedom, indifference, engagement, c31H:2 arousal, calm? whatever you say. i'm an idiot, not looking for knowledge c41H:2 or identity. hey, there's the cuckoo, by conincidence, first time this c51H:6 year. it's behavior stands out, systematic, relatively fearless. our c61H:6 levels are endlessly modulating. domains. then time domains. how to c71H:2 waste time properly. what have you done - nothing, what achieved - c81H:6 nothing, what's in store for you - nothing. why am i writing? forget the c91H:6 i's. forget the b's. toornotto. it's call is enchanting and soft. what ca1H:6 remains? humans are something else. it's not possible. the glue is cb1H:7 somewhere else. gluem. sticky writing. hard reality. a hard, impure, cc1H:6 protein gelatin, obtained by boiling skins, hoofs, and other animal cd1H:6 substances in water, then melted or diluted. epiphenomena. every change ce1H:6 is to the worse. energy waste. taj mahal, a white mausoleum. white cf1H:2 noise, random noise with a uniform frequency spectrum over a wide range d01H:7 of frequencies. what else can we do? shitty mausoleum, shitty thunder, d11H:6 shitty force. survival of the shittiest. nothing to do with us, it d21H:6 argues in another domain, order survives by creating more chaos. fatal bd1H:6 tactic. for each beautiful combination there's a dung. we will not be1H:2 survive. and every human specimen dies in his shit. still the cuckoo is bf1H:2 doing its thing. is it an automaton? joy works from that level. but if c01H:6 you walk the line you're dead. the shadowing, protection. to remain c11H:2 alive. as if. it doesn't hold, since i'll not remain, and it's outside c21H:6 my domain. i don't care, and that's the decent position. to care about c31H:2 being alive or dead, how absurd. something for the cuckoo. i don't think c41H:2 i care emotionally either. i've been on the verge of dying, like c51H:6 everybody, accidents, near-accidents or whatever, it doesn't arouse c61H:6 much. should it? i've already given up. nothing happens after that. c71H:2 still there's joy and pain, love and toothache, they're inside the c81H:6 domains, rooted, isn't the teeth the only part of the skeleton that's c91H:6 visible, how ironic, and the smile. i try to remain plain, for bb1H:7 readability, i can't stand anything else. i don't want to i. the do bc1H:2 don't want to be. life takes care of itself, if not, then nothing. i'm bd1H:6 sorry, i'm just an animal, i really don't care, i'm just human, be1H:2 indifferent, like nature, why anything else? if i was promised eternal bf1H:2 life i'd consider it, else nothing. and rather nothing. i'm looking c01H:6 forward. it projects back as joy. and calmness. still the body with c11H:2 everything it isn't. c21H:6 __ isbn 82-92428-08-9
