--- In [email protected], Mel <gunnar19632000@...> wrote:
>
> That's what I like about Zen, but you still haven't taught anything here.
> However, I'll view some more of your postings. The Zen Buddhist monks I've
> come across face-to-face tend to be quite direct and straightforward, but
> without any grandstanding or making spectacles of themselves. Take care that
> you don't put too much of the attention on your dualistic self. Bow with the
> Buddha, be Buddha
> Â
> in Buddha's grace
> Mel
> That's what I like about Zen, but you still haven't taught anything here.
> However, I'll view some more of your postings. The Zen Buddhist monks I've
> come across face-to-face tend to be quite direct and straightforward, but
> without any grandstanding or making spectacles of themselves. Take care that
> you don't put too much of the attention on your dualistic self. Bow with the
> Buddha, be Buddha
> Â
> in Buddha's grace
> Mel
I'm not trying to teach anything. I have nothing to teach, and I don't mean
that in an "enlightened" manner, I REALLY have NOTHING to teach. I will
continue posting my very small, inoffensive posts until kicked out of the
group. I will not fight being kicked out should this circumstances elicit
itself, but until such time, I will continue to post at my own volition,
regardless of the Zenometric caliber of my posts. I am not a Zen Buddhist
monk. I do not plan to be or not to become one.
I have a brain problem. I can understand what I say to others; others can not
understand what I say to them; I can not understand what others say to me;
others can understand what they say to me. This problem is exponentially worse
in the presence of white noise.
Help me out with this please:
In the presence of white noise, most notably shower static & rubber tires
against highway & air fans & running water, I hear my own thoughts out loud -
literally as if on a radio somewhere in the room.
I have practiced meditation to the point that I could almost hear the shape of
the ventilation when then fan turned on in the middle of sitting. I really
could tell the difference between different ventilation shapes depending on the
building in which I was at the time. Many, many, many doctors have said I am
schizophrenic, and deteriorating over time, and that this is what I was
hearing.
I say "humbug". I have been hearing voices all my life. They never tell me to
do things, only whisper my name or I hear my own thoughts out loud. I know
what I know, and what some others know but express differently. You want a
behind-the-scenes look? Here's a bit as far as I know. There IS a context to
express which is the macro-analogous universal standard. There ARE objective
reference points which CAN be determined by the subjective cross-reference of
the senses & thought combined. Just as there would be no horizon without the
concurrence of the sky and the ground/sea, so would there be no Zen (and there
is no Zen, just as there is no actual horizon to which one could travel and
plant a flag {[(FLAG)]}.
So maybe my brain is fucked up and that's why I can't do anything superficial
IOR practical IOR experimentally relevant to a satisfactory degree of
performance. The skill I've cultivated to a greater degree than even music is
staying out of the hospital. Going into a mental hospital is just boot camp.
They basically teach you what to say and do to get out.
So I love you all, and kiss my ass; you're starving: I'm only giving you my
shit to pick corn seeds from.
By the way, not being ready to die is not a reason to die LATER. The less
ready one is to die, the sooner t'would be better for one to do so.
Sincerely,
helpy helpy helpy helpywhatthefuck and I know what I say, and I'm always gonna
say it,
pandanaspschizosock
PS ((did you notice how many times "I" said "I" in this post... and you're
still reading this?! "I" woulda said "fuck that!"))
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