beautiful, nina. On 3/26/07, Nina <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
Marissa, I'm so sorry. My eyes filled with tears when I read your news this morning. I had such high hopes for a miracle for you and your Slinky boy. I know you haven't come to this decision lightly and that the only reason you would even consider this is to spare him any unnecessary suffering. MC has a quote that has given me comfort, something about it being better to let them go a day too soon than an hour too late. I have been on both sides of this terrible coin; waiting with hope only to have them suffer, and living afterward with the fear that I made the decision to help them cross too soon. No matter what we do in these circumstances we may be plagued by the possibility that we did the wrong thing, (the dreaded "what ifs"). I just wanted to let you know that I understand, and that I don't believe that it is possible to do "the wrong thing" when these hard decisions are made from our hearts. When we lose the hope of recovery, then letting them go is the last gift of love we can bestow on them. The last act of protection we can provide. I had such terrible regrets when I helped my Jazzy cross, but in the weeks that followed I found myself replacing my self-recriminations with acceptance. Even if I hadn't made the decision I did, she most likely would have been gone by then. Finally, I was able to forgive myself, not so much for the decisions I made, but for not being able to control the circumstances of our time together. I was able to forgive myself for not being able to save her. At least I can know that because I made the decision I did, when I did, her suffering was not prolonged. I know that she knows I will always love her, that I'm grateful for the time she graced my life and that no matter how many tears I shed, I will never be sorry I took her in. I can rest easier knowing that my sweet bottle baby, whom I had protected and nurtured from the time I became her surrogate mom, never had a moment of fear or want. Not even at the end of her all too short life. I'm glad that you've made it possible to spend this time in Slinky's company. With how hard you've both fought, with all you and your family have done for your darling Slink, I'm praying that you will be spared the torture of any "what ifs". Hold that angel close and know that he has worked his way into all our hearts. Much love to you, Nina Marissa Johnson wrote: > Thanks for that reminder Phaewryn. I've actually been able to > postpone tomorrow's meeting (my boss had asked if I wanted to this > morning because I've been sick, but like a dope I said I'd be > okay!...but I was able to call everyone and tell them we're postponing > it. I think it's for the best all the way around). So I've made the > appointment for tomorrow evening at 6:40 - the last appointment of the > day - and have found a friend to go with me. > > I can't believe I'm doing this. It seems so...FINAL. And I guess it > is, but...wow. I know it's what's best but that doesn't make it any > easier. > > Anyway, Slink and I have the rest of tonight and all of tomorrow to be > with each other. Thanks again for all your support! > > MJ
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