Godszen, Thanks for sharing. I was wondering if you wouldn't also mind sharing what ever you took just before expressing that. I'm just kidding with you. I love hearing and reading others thoughts and opinions on this just this. Lately I have had a clear visual and understanding of my habits and routines and ruts. Seems to me that once these are seen and understood they no longer take hold. Reminds me a little of the Greek myth regarding hell. Someone had to push a giant boulder of a huge hill. When almost to the top, the boulder would slip and roll back down to the bottom. Then had to be pushed up again, only to roll right back down ........ forever. Just a myth ........... I think not. I have also noticed that lately almost nothing has an effect this body's emotions, unless I allow it. It's not that I am detached in any way ( I was), I'm actually getting closer to people and things, and starting to feel a kind of love or understanding towards most everyone and everything. A new appreciation. Sure some people erk me from time to time talking about petty dramas and what have you, but just recognizing that they are just caught up in their own illusion seems to make it O.K. Basically I allow the emotions that bring pleasure, disregard the ones that bring displeasure. Not sure if that is right or wrong as if there really was a right or wrong, but this seems to be working for me. One more thing, it appears that others seem to have a different perspective of me. I seem to be getting a lot more hi's, hello's, how are you's and am being approached far more frequently than in the past. Maybe it is me initiating the pleasantries and small talk. Not sure and it's not important, but it feels good. Well, Godszen, you motivated me to share my recent thoughts and experiences. I hope others will follow.
On Dec 31, 9:09 am, godszen <[email protected]> wrote: > It is my opinion that in the search for self-knowledge there should be > a thorough investigation of one's own mind. Not in the contents, such > as thoughts/beliefs or conceptual knowledge, but in the structure and > essence of the mind itself. I have been working on this for some time > now and would like to share my findings. The mind seems to be made of > a ray, or beam of awareness, and nothing else. The mind seems to be > where this ray (of self) can and is manipulated into various forms and > sensations. It seems that most individuals spend their whole life > manipulating this ray of (self)awareness (a busy mind), and never take > the time to stop and see exactly what they're manipulating (a little > self observation). If the ray of attention is squeezed, pinched or > blocked off, the mind/self feels anxiety or tension, also there is > tendency to identify one's self with this particular sensation and > it's location, this is what's sometimes referred to as "hanging on". > If one just pays close attention to this manipulating, one can > discover how to be neutral so to speak, how to let the ray of > awareness be untouched, to open up and expand, and to let river of > (self) awareness flow freely. It is in this flowing sensation that > bliss, love, joy, shakti vibration, fullness, mind expansion, and > extra ordinary powers of awareness are experienced. I have yet to see > clearly exactly where and how this ray enters the body/mind, and > experience it's source directly.
