I'm getting a bad name on the list...... ....and I probably deserve it for being impulsively nasty, even though certain politicla views make me want to upchuck, well it's rubbing off on individuals...I have to keep asking *myself* whether I *did* mean it personally, since everyone is *taking* it personally. I am actually more to use a psychological term "internalizer" (blame oneself) rather than "externalizer" (blame others), by inclination anyway, and the long timers know I can be self deprecating often excessively so. But when I'm not self deprecating then maybe it goes too far the other way. In other words, I must be insane in a clinical if not legal sense Not innocent, but "guilty and insane/mentally ill," is how a court would put it anyway...I never tend to want to actually plead innocent. well...I'd been posting on another (and much politer) list DB is involved with and manaed (with a single indiscreet word on list, followed by an oflist exchange...)to renew an old feud - he and I are not on speaking terms, I guess; he said "let's go our separate ways," he had so wanted to believe in me once, and felt betrayed...gee, I wonder what he would think if he's looking at the public archives, "is that the same Kristin?" Huh. I am over sensitive to criticism. and prone to putting my foot in my mouth or keyboard in publicand then over reacting on being chided for it. and over reacting to being chided again for over reacting in a vicious spiral that leaves both sides hurt (Especially someone ilke Brin who prides himself on being gentle.) I am not going to unsubscribe by the way, but I guess Ishould quit posting for now unless the topic is something very innocious - maybe not even then. (tensions are running so high between people with the "feeling unwelcome" thing.) Kristin (Oh JDG... if you wnat to be non political and neutral in a nice innocious post, maybe you could try getting rid of your .signature files, or only including the info that would be on a business card. I never said so, but I had found your .sigs such as those during the Bush campaign a bit offensive because it effectively dragged politics into every single post no matter what. Dolphin is talking "ban politics," but a better proposal might be "no political preaching in .signature files." The list may contain political discussions, but it is not a Repulican rally.)
