> Of course, I *could* repeat that my role as a member is > separated from my > role as listowner, but I would probably be talking to deaf > ears. So I will > refrain from repeating that here. > >
Would you consider handing the 'flag' to someone else for a week... month? I am curious. Would this not satisfy any critic that your list ownership influences your "member' personna? At risk of getting rocks thrown at me... I feel as though this list has become too focused upon Jeroen, and less upon Brin. I like the Brin part... thats why I am here. So I feel sort of robbed of the experience, when I am watching other people see how well they can throw rocks.... Am I blaming anyone... no... am I wanting to leave? Yes. After nearly two long years post-Brin, I am ready to "throw in the towel" as well. I truly love to share my piggish opinions like anyone else. I really hate having this noise in the list. I recently joined another list (not Culture), filled with personality types like myself. I realized that Brin-l, over the last few months, has become less unique, and more like any other list. If I wanted a bunch of "zealot-speak" I would have stayed subscribed to the other list. I hear the same 'echos' in this list that I heard in the other. There always seems to be someone in the list who tends to dominate, to the point that the list loses its precious identity. I would say that this list is no longer about Brin, and more about listening to Jeroen share his opinions about how decadent us Americans have become. If I wanted that sort retoric, I could find it elsewhere. Does this make me an ignorant American? Perhaps. Let me enjoy my fantasy worldview.... I have not wanted to write this. I have evaded it on many personal levels. I like you guys... I have grown tremendously from being a part of this list. Perhaps I have outgrown it, and I now need to 'leave the nest'. This is not a threat. I am not asking anyone to change their behavior. I am externalizing my feeling about this list and its role in my life. It no longer does for me what it did in the past. I think it is time to move on. I would rather talk about transparency, martian colonization, Alien Uplift, and the optimistic future of humanity. I don't want to spend any more time attempting to sort out the insignificant arguments about semantic he said/she said intercourse. I frankly do not care for it. I am going to forstall this decision until the weekend, to make sure I am not just being emotional. I feel a "calling" to leave. I have to discover how authentic this calling is. I embrace and welcome your criticism. Chad Cooper Nerd from Hell
