Lorena,
Honey you were just a child, please forgive yourself. Although it must of been
very traumatic for you and I am sorry that happened to you. Yes, it was so good
that you had other animals to help ease the pain. Like I said it was one of the
reason I added to my family as I do not ever want to feel that lonely horrible
feeling again. It was like when my husband walked out on us - I was so scared
as I did not know how we would survive but I had my three kids to think of and
I could not dwell on myself. I am aslo so blessed to have a daughter that lives
close by and we are the best of friends and her children come here often almost
every weekend. I am so grateful that I have them as my other two children live
out of state. But I am always in contact with them, via Skype, email, texting
and make-up packages to send to them all the time so they know that I am
thinking of them. In a perfect world I wish all my kids lived near by - but
jobs and colleges take them
to different places and they have to live their own lives. My youngest
granddaughter who just turned 5 lives in Arizona and she is use to getting what
she calls treasure chests packages from grammie - well it was her birthday and
her dad accidently brought in a package from me and he told her she could not
open it until her birthday. So she called me and I said I am sorry honey but
you have to do what daddy says - so she hung up on me! She is so funny. I wrote
my son and pleaded to him to give it to her early but he stayed strong until
the day before her birthday then he gave in.
Thanks for sharing you story with me, all of this helps and I still have an
email folder called Sami and I am saving all of these stories,
Nancy
--- On Mon, 11/8/10, [email protected] <[email protected]> wrote:
From: [email protected] <[email protected]>
Subject: Re: [Chihuahuas] Honest Kitchen / TO NANCY :)
To: [email protected]
Date: Monday, November 8, 2010, 11:36 AM
I too feel guilty for my moms black and tan Chihuahuas death when I was 12. My
mom and I had just gotten home from a long day of shopping for summer camp and
we had to carry in my trunk so my stepdad had left the door open for us and we
had big dogs outside and little dogs inside and my stepdad had left the feed
bucket for the big dogs on the patio and cash, my moms chi, got out and was
licking it and a big dog came up and bit his head right on the soft spot and my
mom and I held him while he passed away. I felt so bad for years and its eased
some but when I think about him I still feel guilty even though there was a lot
of things involved in his death I still feel like it was mostly my fault
because we had to bring my trunk in. He was around 8 years old and its a good
thing we had other chis to get us through that terrible time and we continued
getting more to love.
And cash was my first chi, pumpkins mate and they had a baby, peaches, that we
kept and pumpkin and peachy lived to be 16 and 14 and passed away from
congenital heart disease a couple years ago a few months apart. Pumkin lived
with it for 5 or 6 years and peachy just died from it suddenly 2 months after
her mom died and when I think about all 3 of them i think about them in heaven
all together again playing and one big happy family and I'm so glad I was able
to enjoy them. And I just thought I'd share that with yall and now I have my
chi monster who is so different then them and I love just as much and I don't
know what I would do without him.
Lorena
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-----Original Message-----
From: Nancy Lucky <[email protected]>
Sender: [email protected]
Date: Mon, 8 Nov 2010 10:27:23
To: <[email protected]>
Reply-To: [email protected]
Subject: Re: [Chihuahuas] Honest Kitchen / TO NANCY :)
Pat,
Thanks for sharing that with me. That is what the vet thinks Sami had and when
I think back he did sleep a lot - but it was when I was sick and thought that
he just got use to his life with me. Sometimes he would not wake up until 2 in
the afternoon. He also only ate small amounts once a day and only drank water
once a day. I thought that well he is a small dog and I thought it was normal.
My daughter thinks that their were signs and I guess I did not know them. But I
still think the bone was too rich for him and he got too ill and could not come
back. I have his things too and they are in a box in my garage and I go and
open it and I can still smell him on his blankie. It makes me happy to still be
able to smell him.
I know for a lot of people this is going to sound strange and people are not
going to believe it. But when I got abbey after I had her for a few months, I
prayed to Sami to give me a sign through Abbey that he was okay and that I
would see him again. Well the whole time I had Abbey she always went potty on
the front of my lawn by the drive way. I have a huge corner lot and Sami would
only do his poo poo's at the very end of the lawn on the other side down the
hill - so no one could see him. Well the next day I took Abbey out to go to the
bathroom and she walked to the other side of the lawn down the hill and did her
number 2's and to this day that is the only place she will have a bowel
movement at. So silly or not I believe it was a sign from my baby telling me
that he was okay.
I know that you too even though your time was short with your baby would not
change anything if you had to do it all again. I was chosen to be his mommy and
he had the best two years any little guy could have. But I will always miss him
so much.
thanks for your story, it is all healing to me.
I made an album of some of my favorite pictures of him of Facebook yesterday
and it was so fun looking at all our special times.
Hugs - Nancy andd the girls
--- On Mon, 11/8/10, OKreationZ <[email protected]> wrote:
From: OKreationZ <[email protected]>
Subject: Re: [Chihuahuas] Honest Kitchen / TO NANCY :)
To: [email protected]
Date: Monday, November 8, 2010, 5:05 AM
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Nancy
I have held off writing until finally I just had to.. I want to tell you about
my Ashlee, she was not a Chihuahua but a Basenji and was the first dog my hubby
and I got together..
We got her from our local pound and didn't even know what kind of pup she was
until we took her to the vet. We had just seriously fallen in love with her
immediately. She had kennel cough when we brought her home. I guess it is the
one thing our local shelter/pound does not vaccinate against according to the
vet we had (he has retired since then). She was very sick for a long time as a
pup, but finally came around.
She was super loving, obedient, smart and all around good dog. But
unfortunately she also had a host of medical problems. I am sure I helped found
my vets retirement in the 3 years she was alive. I do not regret a single penny
spent. When she was about a year old it came to light that she had a congenital
heart defect. Well when she was feeling ell this did not stop her from doing
stuff like going out in her wading pool and splashing at the water with her
foot so she could bite the bubbles.. We still have the pool but she is the only
dog I have ever had that willing used it.. Lol..
I don't think I moved that she wasn't there. There were days when all I could
get into her was instant oatmeal and the vet would say it is time. and then she
would rally again. And she had such a zest for living that I had decided that
she would let me know when it was time.
Well to make a long story short and before I start crying.. About 4yrs ago, a
friend went into assisted living and we took his 13yr old lab, Frosty
in. Frosty was a loving and wonderful dog, who just happened to be old. Ashlee
bonded fairly quickly with Frosty and they spent a lot of time together. But
Ashlee always seemed to be checking her out.
Around the time that it seemed that Ashlee had decided that Frosty was
staying, she went to take her usual afternoon nap. Because she did tire easily
I didn't think anything of it. Finally, I said to my hubby she sure seems to be
sleeping a long time. And when I went to check on her, she had gone to the
rainbow bridge. She was a little over 3 years.
I still grieve and I still cry but no longer immediately upon talking about
her. She was a card and oh she loved to wear clothes and I still have her
little shirts and bandana's. Plus her collar, and the collars of the two labs
that went to the Rainbow bridge. I probably always will have those items.
I wonder sometimes if I could have done better with her, maybe took her to more
vets, yada yada yada. Then my hubby reminds me that I gave her 3 years of love
(she came out of a high kill shelter). I will never forget her, I was looking
for another Basenji when I found my Tia and fell in love with Chi's.. Lol..
I just wanted to share to let you know it is okay to grieve. And it will get
better. My non dog friends don't understand but then they don't understand
Chihuahua clothes either.. Lol.. So hang in there and have peace my friend
Big Huggles
Pat in OK
-------Original Message-------
From: Nancy Lucky
Date: 11/8/2010 1:41:45 AM
To: [email protected]
Subject: Re: [Chihuahuas] Honest Kitchen / TO NANCY :) [5 Attachments]
Shanna,
Thank-you so much for your very understanding and loving letter. When I got
done reading it I went through all of my pictures of Sami and did an album for
him on Face Book. It brought back so many wonderful memories and I got to see
that beautiful face again. He was such a beautiful boy and he really was a
momma's boy - he did not care for a lot of people and he was very protective of
me. But the people he knew and trusted he loved with all his little heart. I
did not get him from a well known breeder - I actually owned a baby store and
down the street was a piercing tattoo store. He had the cutest little girl chi
named Turtle who he got from his friends in the mountains. When Turtle parents
had another litter I bought Sami and I paid 500.00 for a non registered dog and
I knew nothing about how he was breed or cared for - but it was love at first
sight. The first bath I gave him, I put the towels in the dryer for him so they
would be warm and when I
dried him he growled at me. Well I stopped that by putting him on his back and
telling him no and he never ever showed me any aggression again. I did have to
work with him with the grand kids but he learned and became such a love. I got
private lessons from a great trainer and she taught me how to train him and it
worked and so began our love story. He went every where with me and the nights
I was in pain, he would lay and lick my legs as that is where my pain was. He
knew me better than I knew my self. He brought me so much love and joy.
Thanks so much for letting me talk about him and giving me permission to still
grieve - it was a year last month. I am sitting here right now watching my two
little girls nestled in their heated bed sound asleep - they look so precious.
I tried to pick up the baby to have her lay with me for awhile but she wanted
back in bed with her sister. I think one of the reasons that I got another baby
was because I still have this fear that something will happen to one of them
and then at least I will not be alone again. But Abbey also lost her best
friend who she played with every day as they moved out of state and everyday
when we walked by her house she would cry and scratch at the door. So when
Abbey's breeder sent me an email out of the blue and said that she breed
Abbey's parents one last time and only one baby made it that she had this
feeling that I needed to have her - so the rest is history.
I am attaching a few pictures of Sami and thank you for asking I had so much
fun doing his album on face book.
Hugs and blessings and thanks so much for reaching out to me, it meant a lot to
me.
Can you believe my girlfriend and I put him in a dress - I just thought he was
so pretty that he would make a beautiful girl - but even in a dress he was all
boy!
--- On Sun, 11/7/10, Kavi <[email protected]> wrote:
From: Kavi <[email protected]>
Subject: Re: [Chihuahuas] Honest Kitchen / TO NANCY :)
To: [email protected]
Date: Sunday, November 7, 2010, 7:47 PM
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Hi Nancy
I read your story. its very heartbreaking to read. I think most of us have
something in our lives that we wished we did not do at the time and regret it.
I am not sure how long it has been since Sami passed, but each day will get
better. Keep in mind that while he was with you, you gave him the best years he
could ever have asked for. Now... do you think Sami would want you to be sad,
depressed? NO.. he would not. I believe when he was here with you, when you
were sad or depressed he comforted you.. and made you feel better. So now he
does not want you to feel guilt, sadness, or be depressed. He is with you and
watching you always, but he can not make you feel better unless you know that
is what he wants.
Sometimes, writing a letter to him, talking to his picture, singing, reading to
him... will make YOU feel a bit better. You can say all the things you wished
you could say. Talking to other people about it also can help. do not keep it
inside. We are here for you.. if you want to tell us all about it 100's of
times, we are here for you and will listen and give you full support. :)
I cant say that I have ever been in your exact position, but I feel your pain.
I know what guilt is like to carry with you. I am to this day, still carrying
guilt about doing something that my grandma asked me not to do when I was 23,
(now 56) but I did it anyway cause I was talked into it. Because I did what she
asked me not to do, she was without her car forever! I dont want to really get
into it, but I do know what carrying guilt is all about. We have to focus on
the future, and live day to day. Its hard... I know, but we have to try. That
is the way I live day to day.
I hope you will please still write about Sami here on the group. Send some
pictures too. I do not think I have ever seen pictures, as I am fairly new. and
I love doggie pic!
I had to write what I felt... I hope no one is upset. :)
I hope to see pic soon
Shanna
--- On Sun, 11/7/10, Nancy Lucky <[email protected]> wrote:
From: Nancy Lucky <[email protected]>
Subject: Re: [Chihuahuas] Honest Kitchen
To: [email protected]
Date: Sunday, November 7, 2010, 3:06 PM
I bought something very similar to this at pet express - all natural - no
additives or hormones - but abbey did not like it at all. I am going to try it
again and see if Maggie likes it. it was 8.00 for a bag of about 8 ounces - i
was glad that they had small bags to try and this lady there who feeds her
babies raw says this is the next best thing. I do cook my girls organic free
range chicken and they have that for breakfast and love it.
I am still on the fence but falling softly over....this is my fear the night
before my Sami passed away my girlfriend brought him over a ham hock bone that
she used to make beans with. My other girlfriend told me that I should not give
it to him - but then Denise came over and said has Sami tried the bone yet so I
let him have it and of course he loved it all the bone marrow. I have a picture
of him eating it as he was so happy. That was the night he got sick and then he
died at 1 pm and I have carried this guilt in my heart for so long as I felt I
killed my baby. I am crying right now as I am writing this as no matter what
anyone tells me, I keep going back to that bone and blaming my self. My sweet
girlfriend felt so guilty too - she even slept here at my house for several
days as I was suicidal it was one of the lowest parts of my life ever and I
felt that I killed my baby who I adored and would of ran in the street to save
him. My vet thinks that it
has nothing to do with it but I do. Of course to do a necropsy it is 2,000 and
I could not afford it. This is the first time I have shared the whole story as
it is still so painful to me to think that I killed my baby boy that loved me
so much and trusted me. I got him when I first got ill and lost my job of 25
years and a baby boutique that I owned with my daughter-in-law and my health
and all my friends at work who were like family to me - so he was my whole
world.
So that is my fear. I felt like the worst mommy ever. I took Sami to the vet
every time he sneezed. I had even taken him to ER one night because he threw up
and it cost me 1,000. He had been to the vet three days before this because he
had a little limp and I was worried. I am going to stop emailing you all about
this as I want to put it to rest, but I felt that I needed to share my truth
with you all as you have all been so honest with me. I feel God placed you
wonderful women in my life at a time I so desperately needed you all. When you
think about what one little chihuahua can do to change you life and the people
you meet it gives me chills.
I have wanted to tell you all the whole story but it takes me time to trust and
plus I still carry so much quilt in my heart. Maybe you can pray for me that
God will lift this burden from me. I pray every night but it is still with me.
I know that someday I will see the little 3lb boy who changed my life again.
Thank you for letting me share.
With love and blessings to all,
Nancy and her girls
--- On Sun, 11/7/10, Deanna Corey <[email protected]> wrote:
From: Deanna Corey <[email protected]>
Subject: [Chihuahuas] Honest Kitchen
To: [email protected], [email protected],
[email protected], "Poodle Group" <[email protected]>,
[email protected], [email protected]
Date: Sunday, November 7, 2010, 1:48 PM
Hey Everyone,
A friend of mine recently sent me some Honest Kitchen dog food samples...THANKS
J.A.!!! And we finally got around to trying it out this morning. I normally
feed raw...and do grind for the littles as I worry about bone fragments...but I
have to say they all went CRAZY for the one called Force...which is a
dehydrated but raw Chicken, veggies and fruit...no grains. I wondered if any of
you have ever used it. They did like the other one...the VERVE...which is the
beef option but went absolutely NUTS for the FORCE. I have never seen them so
excited over a food. Would you guys look into it or tell me if you use it what
you think??? PROS???? CONS????Thanks in advance!
Waggin' Tails in The Dog Park,
Deanna
and
The Dog Park Pack:
Nugget, Shuai-Li, Mouse, Myrtle, Mable, and Caleb and honorary non-dog members
of The Dog Park:
Stella-Macaw, Stanley-Amazon, Miles the cat
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