I am deeply touched by all the suffering everyone here has endured. I will pray for everyone. Peace, Angela M
On Wed, Feb 9, 2011 at 2:22 PM, Joan Croft <[email protected]> wrote: > > > Wow…You are amazing. I will say that families are rarely like Ozzie & > Harriet (maybe don’t know that show because you are so young.) I am single > and lived with my mom until she passed away almost 3 years ago. My brothers > and sisters have gone their own ways, and after my mom passed away, the > months following were filled with hatred towards me. Right now I think that > all are on speaking terms with me J. > > I have never been married, and have no children, and I am a Catholic. I > have had more than 30 surgeries since I was 23. I had osteomyelitis in my > jaw which started because a dentist left some amalgam between my tooth and > the gums by accident. I have had bilateral carpal tunnel releases and still > have pains in my hands from time to time. I have had six knee surgeries on > my left knee – 4 arthroscopic and 2 knee transplants. Then my right > shoulder went bad, so they had to remove part of my collar bone and most of > the acromium. Just when things seemed to be looking up a little, I was > rear-ended on a freeway overpass while I was stopped, and I sustained both > lumbar and cervical problems with herniated disks and even bone spurs after > I had the injury a long time. That was in May 2002, my first lower back > surgery for that was in December 2003 and another in January 2004. In > October 2004 I had my first cervical fusion, and then in February of 2005 I > had a huge lower back surgery. I was in so much pain after that and I was > on my way to get lower back xrays done in April 2005 and stopped at the > intersection…the light was originally red; when it turned green there were > people crossing in the crosswalk, so I was waiting to turn when the lady > behind me rear-ended me. Well…that caused more spinal injuries and more > surgery. I had surgery that June and then that November I was in total pain > again. I went to a different doctor that time and in August 2006 I had my > second cervical fusion and then in December 2006 I had my lumbar/sacral > fusion. After a couple of months I was in pain again and thought that there > was nothing else that could be done…but the pain got so bad that I had to go > to surgery again for the doctor to remove the lamina from four levels of my > lower back. Another three months and he removed more bony structures from > my lower back. After that I started to have more neck and lower back pain > (Jan 2008) and after MRIs showed that I had another herniated cervical disk, > I asked my doctor if he thought that taking some time off of work would > help…he agreed. So, at this same time, my mom was being diagnosed with Lewy > Body Dementia and could not be left alone…and God made it possible for me to > be there with her while I was trying to lower the spinal pain. Things > didn’t go too well for my mom…the doctor that diagnosed ‘dementia’ > prescribed meds that are commonly used for Alzheimer’s…and it took over a > month from that time to have her diagnosed with Lewy Body Dementia which > causes the person to have bad effects from some of the meds that she had. I > believe that this is what sent her in a downward spiral and she ultimately > passed away in April 2008. The previous December, I had purchased a home in > North Las Vegas, NV because I had severe allergies to mold that could not be > relieved due to the amount of mold that was in the air where we were living > in Escondido, CA. We went back and forth on weekends until Mom could not do > it any more, but I did have a place to move when she passed away. I have > been here in North Las Vegas full time since July 2008. My respiratory and > allergy problems are greatly relieved. But, after moving here and my neck > and back still hurting, I got myself an excellent spine surgeon here. He > did xrays and now I had three herniated cervical disks and 3 herniated > lumbar disks. He did a cervical fusion (my 3rd) in January 2009, and a > hemi-laminotomy in July 2009. With the last surgery I was also leaking > spinal fluid which produced such horrible headaches that even my high pain > tolerance couldn’t help…about 4 days after the first lower back surgery I > had to have an emergency blood patch procedure to make blood clot over the > tear in the sack that holds the spinal cord and the spinal fluid. That > didn’t work and I was leaking more spinal fluid that night. Eight days > after the first of these surgeries my spine surgeon assembled his entire > surgical team for a Saturday surgery and he had to reopen the entire 18 > inches from the first surgery and he looked carefully up and down the sack > and reinforced the patches he had previously put on the sack and then found > one more leak which he patched. Then I had to lay absolutely flat for 3 > days and then when I was allowed to sit up and stand up there was no > headache…YAY!!! Recovery from that series of surgeries took a very long > time. I got Dolly right after moving here in July 2008 and I could sit on > the floor and play with her, but with my continuing and worsening spinal > problems I was sad for Dolly, so I wanted to get her a sister, but instead I > got her a brother (Desi) in October 2009. Dolly was pretty cruel to him in > the first months, but they get a long pretty well now. I am now having > severe bouts of vertigo which I believe is related to my neck injuries. It > made me fall on the living room tile in November and I tore the meniscus in > my right (good) knee. It doesn’t bother me too much, so no surgery is in > the near future on that. The spine surgeon is sending me for another > cervical MRI to see if there is a problem visible for this vertigo to be > happening and worsening. > > Well..I think this is all that I am going to write. Now you all know what > there is to know! > > > > *From:* [email protected] [mailto:[email protected]] *On > Behalf Of *Angela Mose > *Sent:* Wednesday, February 09, 2011 9:30 AM > *To:* [email protected] > *Subject:* [Chihuahuas] Deanna...and all > > > > > > Thank you so much Deanna for your beautiful and uplifting words. I have > such peace right now. It takes courage to share so many personal emotions > and challenges with virtual strangers, which tells me that this is a very > accepting and loving group of people. I know that I am in the right place, > and it took a little dog, which isn't even in my home yet, to lead ME. > > I know already that God Himself has led me to Greta. I intended to get a > different dog, but Greta chose me. I am also getting a second chi, but > he/she hasn't let me know which one yet. > > I too, have been through several storms. I have seven children and three > little miscarried saints in heaven. The oldest,Felicia, 22, has been through > her own intense struggles and she is currently living about 1 and half from > hours us, but light years away from God and the faith. The next oldest > daughter,Trisha, 20, is also using her Will to bulldoze through life, but > she is still living at home and attending Mass and sometimes participating > in family prayer when she is not at work. The next daughter, Kimberly, 17, > is a great joy and consulation. She is in her 11th year homeschooling > (which I have only been h/s'ing for going on 14 years) and she is so very > patient (most of the time) <smile> and helpful. She desires to be a nurse > and is determined to pursue her dreams. The next, my only son, Matthew, is > 11 and is currently battling asthma and really bad nightmares. He is a > delight and eager to learn, if you can get him to sit still for three > minutes at a time. He is currently in 5th grade. The next, another girl, > Hannah, 9, is a very complacent child. Truly a peace maker. The only issue > is she takes after her father and 20 yr old sister, and she hides her > emotion, she seldom cries or expresses anger or even disappointment. I > wonder if its because I and the 17 yr old cry at the drop of the hat > (smile). She learns quickly and she is willing to try anything, she is in > 4th and struggles some with reading. Next, 6 yr old spitfire girl! Sarah is > not afraid to express her views, no matter what! She is funny and has a > belly laugh that shakes the whole house! She has some learning disabilities > but she marches on with cheerfulness. Lastly, baby girl Chloe is three. She > is certainly the most fearless yet most loving child I ever raised. One > second she is trying to fly off of the top bunk, the next she is cuddling in > your arms and giving big kisses. She loves, loves, loves, all animals and > that is why she will NEVER be left alone with any little chi. She is loved > and adored and spoiled by everyone else! > > I am a catholic convert of 12 years. I was raised by single mother after my > parents divorced when I was eight. My father was a child molester but the > only one who believes me is my older sister, because she too, was molested. > I have a younger brother who has been in and out of mental health hospitals > since he had a brain cyst removed six years ago. My older sister has dabbled > in withcraft and some voo-doo. My mother claims she believes in God, but has > never been baptised and does not attend any church anywhere, I based on her > life, I'd say she does not pray. She attacked my family for years once we > started homeschooling and then converted. She now understands and even > supports homeschooling, most of the time, but even though she has attended > some Masses with us, she has no real tolerance for our beliefs. > > Dear husband is my hero. He is my best friend and soul mate. We almost > divorced when I wanted more than three children and again, when I started > going to church. Since then, he has had quite a God given change of heart. > He is very pro-life. Even though he is 49 and I am 42, he would welcome more > children if I was able to have them). He loves God and is learning to trust > Him a little more everyday. He is the sole provider for our family and he > works very hard, getting up at the crack of 3:00 AM every weekday. That is > why he is ready for bed most nights by 7:30 > > While he isn't a gushy animal lover, he is in full agreement of getting the > little chis for his wife. > > Sorry so long, just a little background info for you all. Oh, husband's > side of family are pretty much done with us, since I'm a catholic, > homeschooling stay at home mom who has had more than the acceptable two > children like they all had. So, without God, my husband, and now, hopefully > the liitle dogs, I would be without much support at all. > > Thank you all so much. I hope I haven't worn out my welcome already. > > >
