Hi friends,
Well, I've put it off for two months and now I think it's time. Can you guys
help me?
I'm writing through tears and it makes for a very blurry screen.
I told y'all before about Joe and all his tumors, etc., and that I could spend
thousands (literally) in testing and medications. But the vet told me honestly
that Joe is dying and I could only prolong his life by investing lots of
money, but it won't cure him and won't save him for very long.
OK, so I called my vet (and others) and asked about euthanasia prices...I can't
believe how expensive it is. Almost all were $150 and up to put him to sleep
and have a "group" cremation with the ashes spread out to sea.
PLEASE DON'T TELL ME if this doesn't happen and instead something awful
happens. Please don't.
I'll be doing this by myself - driving Joe and me to the Vet; staying beside
and petting Joe while the Dr. injects the serum. And if I understand all this
correctly, then Joe will just go to sleep. Is that right?
So, you guys, how can I know this is the right decision? I've prayed to God to
give me strength, which he does. But I also asked him if I should be doing this
and I don't hear an answer.
How can I justify, in my heart, the fact that I'm going to ("kill" is such a
harsh word, but...) put down my beloved Joe? How do I do that?
Then, what about his little brother? Y'all told me before that his pal will
grieve. I understand what grief is. I buried my beloved son last year. And I
know there is no comparison, but now this year, I have to bury my cherished dog.
Anyway, how do I comfort Koby, my little chi who's known Joe for 10 months?
And, how in the heck do I do this? Drive Joe and I to the vet, take him in;
then drive home with only his collar??
I can't even write this to y'all without crying and I'm pretty sure I won't be
any braver when I drive us to Joe's death.
Please say something to me that will help.
Thank you,
Carolyn, Joe, Koby and Emma Rose
