Dan,
Once again I must say thank you. You have all been very kind. I guess you
would have to know my son Corrie to understand why I went into such a tail
spin. He is so intelligent, and that is not just a mothers prejudice, he has
always scored high on everything. He was in gifted and talented in grade school
and the academic team (they looked at him like he was their golden boy). He
takes AP classes now, he is a Junior. He is majoring in (and going to in
college) German, while taking French and had signed up to learn Japanese this
year (they didnt have enough students sign up so canceled the class). He has
always been shy and very retrospective, unfortunately like myself he over
anaylizes everything so that it makes it hard to believe anything. Now that you
have all been reminding me how teenagers where, I remember how I was never
satisfied with the simple answers and I doubted at every turn, and still do
from time to time, not God's existence (not anymore anyway) but so many othe
r things and I did go thru a time when I doubted him. I am that way about
people too, I read every expression or sentence and look for hidden meanings (
I do it unconciously) I read body language, and Corrie is the exact same way.
You know he didnt talk till he was two but he didnt need to, all he had to do
was look at me in a certain way and I knew exactly what he wanted. He is so
diverse in his opinions and absorbs everything around him. He was so laid back
and happy as a boy, but as a man he has become dark and brooding, not in an
angry way but meloncholy. I dont know, I didnt mean to go on and on I just
meant to say.....thank you.
Hugs,
Katy
--
"The innocent and the beautiful have no enemy but time."
-William Butler Yeats
Katy
DX: 10/03
#677 in Zero Club
xanga.com/katybug45
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From: "skink1100" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
>
> Katy,
>
> A few comments on your concerns...hopefully to make you feel a little
> better. I was raised as a christian and went through the same
> "agnostic" period as your son. ...and lived a pretty wild and woolly
> life for quite a while...but as I matured I came back and today believe
> that the Bible is true and the word of God. This is from someone who
> once taught evolutionary ecology and is a scientist. I have no doubts
> at all at this point, and with God's Grace was at last born again.
>
> It is hard as a parent...but you have to pray and leave it in God's
> hands and assume all the early teaching will stick. Your son is still
> young...just continue to be a good example...as hard as that is for all
> of us...and again say your prayers...all will be well I am sure.
>
> I think it is natural to question at this age...but in my case deep
> down I knew there was a God...I suspect he is going through the same
> period. You have done well in giving him the foundation...it will
> stick...just be patient and pray. I will too.
>
> Dan...
> with CML 2 yrs.
>
>
> On Nov 11, 9:28 pm, [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote:
> > I am soooo sorry to come on here with this but I know we talk about more
> > then
> just CML in this group and when you need to vent or talk it always seem
> welcome.
> Well I need to vent or talk I am not sure which......
> > I know there are alot of people on this group and that some may not be of
> > the
> christian faith so I hope nothing I am about to say offends you because that
> is
> not my intention. I know what you believe about a higher power is as
> important
> to you as to me so maybe you will understand why I am so upset.
> > I am by raising a died n the wool Penticostal. I do not neccasarily
> > (sp?)
> live all the standards that my faith believes in though I have convictions
> about
> most of them, I am just rather rebellious and tend to ignore the ones that I
> am
> not completley sure of.
> > My 16 year old son just informed me that he is NOT a christian! He is
> agnostic. He broke my heart, to put it quite simply. I have raised he and his
> brother and sister in church for most of their lives ( It wasnt until I was
> dx
> that I have been out more then in) From the time Corrie was three he was in
> church EVERY time the doors were open. I went (and still do when I go) to
> what I
> call the "green berets" of the Penticostal movement, I go to a Holiness
> Church.
> He has heard the story of Christ all his life. At the age of five he told my
> pastor he wanted to be babtised, (he has always been a very serious child and
> extremely smart and above his age in understanding) when my preacher asked
> him
> why (seeing if he understood why you do it) he looked up at my preacher and
> said
> "I have a movie at home and in it Jesus gets babtised, if He did I want to"
> my
> preacher grinned real big looked at me and said "good enough for me!" He was
> babtised later that day in the river at Carrsville Kentuc
> > ky.
> > It breaks my heart to hear him say that he is not "sure" Jesus is the
> > Son
> of God. I just wanted to start crying. He does not believe anymore that the
> bible is the inspired word of God. I thought oh my Lord what have I done. I
> havent taken him to church like I "should" have for too many years. I know he
> will be required of me in heaven. I feel sooo lost right now. And right
> before I
> started writing to you guys I hung my head and thought Dear Jesus just go
> ahead
> and take me now, I dont want to be cured, I dont want to live to see this
> happening.
> > The ones of you that are of christian belief on this group will
> understand my frustration and grief, the ones who are agnostic, atheist or of
> some religion that does not recognize Jesus Christ will probably think I am
> stupid and that is okay but the rest of you will understand and that is what
> I
> need at this moment, an understanding ear. I hope I havent offended or
> infuriated anyone and thank you for listening.
> > Sincerely,
> > Katy
> >
> > --
> > DX: 10/03 400mg gleevec
> > 1st remission: 12/03
> > #677 in Zero Club
> > 1st relapse: 6/05 raised to 600mg gleevec
> > 2nd second remission: 8/05
> > 2nd relapse: 6/06 to current
> > Taken off of gleevec 6/06
> >
> > xanga.com/katybug45
>
>
> >
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