dear yahoo, i have alot of problem in my life, and i dont have any friend to share my problem with, i have a complicated problem in my life....first, i ever get married and it's and arranged maried and from that married i've got 1 son .. and our marriage didnt succed coz he had another woman, so we get divorced..3 years later im getting married again with my first boyfriend and we have 2 sons... before this i have a beautifull family, my mommy and my daddy never get problem eventhough my daddy always hurting my mommy with playing alot of woman and then he tried to fix it again with mommy until 29th marriage...one day there is one man comes, and makes my mom heart happy, and that man not a good man, he's not a rich person before..he never succed in bussiness but when he can take my moms heart his business becomes succed coz he force my mom to cured his business relation ill. my moms has a give from god to cured someone illness if the doctor had hands up, such as like cancer, aids, etc...he take our mom from us...and my mommy becomes change she changes like a person who doesnt have a love for her children and poor people, coz of that man brain wash.. i hate that man very very much, my brother is not a good son for our family, he just think about himself..he just think about how to get more money without working, by support our mommy affair with a that man that i mention before..all assets letter on his hands, and our daddy only could quiet and said just be patient god had a good plan for us, all that assets was from our daddy not from that man, he only give a satisfaction for our mom in bed and heart...all my daddy treasure, like rings gold, and diamond was been taken by our mom to that man place, but till now god still give his grace to our mommy.....and me, i always think how to fullfill my family needed, every month my daddy giving me a money, and my husband cannot give me anything besides fight, make me think how to pay my sons school, how to eat, all in me, sometimes when limit i cannot hold it again, i just want to go from indonesia and find a better life, but im scared god will angry with and punished me, if im leaving my husband, what must i do, i dont know now..my husband never give me money and money from my daddy is not enough for our daily life..it's been 3 years from 5 years married my husband never giving me born or living a living mind ... I survived until now only because my children, and god ... I've had to seek help do not know to whom to address my problem, help me, what should I do now ... Mom already has his own pleasure staying with friends often telfon affair papa .. I, I just feel bad because my dad was not able to make my dad happy to just make the load continues, with crying and complaining of no money ... while my younger brother is now a greedy just because my mama is empowered to hold the letter by letter asset wealth of my parents. my dad is looking for money so collected so many assets, just be quiet and still willing to forgive even if mama realize that no longer useful in the eyes of that bastard man ... all the stuff my dad, taken by that men t, my dad was willing to report the police but I stop doing that because if my dad would definitely go with the mama's boy, because my mom was in love with that bastard, is not like mama again, but Mom is always thinking about the treasure, treasure continuous ..... do not feel if the bastard who lived with my mama was just using her just expect the treasure from Mom ... Mom always told that my dady never giving her anything, when all assets was on call my mama, papa always bought gold and diamond on my mom birthday and their wedding anniversary .. help meI cannot bare anymore to hold all this problem, my husband just asked for money just to me but never gave me anything ... what I own, only god, but I need someone to accompany me, love me, provide comfort and serenity to me, but i dont want god disapointed with me, what i must supposed to do, help me, I'm do not want drowning with all this problem ... help me ... I really ask for help
