My therapy appointment is now. I didn't get the usual zoom link from my therapist. I called him, and reached voicemail. I heard a windows or macosx style 'ding' unexpectedly during the voicemail greeting, which I have heard before on automated phone systems. I left a voicremail. I sent him a text, too, that I left him a voicemail. I called the intake worker who got me the appointment. I also got voicemail. I got an error that the voicemail box was full, and was disconnected.
On Sun, Dec 27, 2020 at 11:20 AM Karl <[email protected]> wrote: > > I think I successfully blockchained this. I feel very intense, and > I'm scared of the intensity. It is hard to control my behavior, now. > I'm not sure how to make myself verify it is blockchained. but I can > list the transactions here, from the .bsv/tx folder that bsvup makes. > > I'm getting confused on my computer. I don't remember where to find > the files. After a minute of struggle, I remember. > > The system is having long delay listing the directory. maybe it has > many files. I need a rest now so badly, and I can't comprehend how to > rest. > > There are too many to paste in. I will link to the readme, and the > specific email. Here is the bash I use to do this: > $ ls .bsv/tx | while read file; do xxd -ps -r ".bsv/tx/$file" | strings; done > > My alphabetically first transaction has the string 'G0D' in it. I > hope the named entity is aiding me. > > I search for the string README and it takes a long time. I remember > repeatedly uploading the same failed transaction, over and over again, > not understanding what I was doing because of something. > > The search finds other emails, that aren't in my thread. I don't > understand. I must have mistyped something. > > Oh, I found the cypherpunks archive folder, not the folder that has > this thread in it. I'll have to think harder. It's 11:19 . I > remember there was a README.md file. I remember this file has > transactions in it, so I could check on the blockchain itself, for > files with that name. I don't want to, I want to just find the folder > I made locally. > > On Sat, Dec 26, 2020 at 9:14 AM Karl <[email protected]> wrote: > > > > On Sat, Dec 26, 2020 at 7:43 AM Karl <[email protected]> wrote: > > > > > > regarding karl's schizophrenia, i'm trying to blockchain this thread > > > using D:// . these transactions have this message and are currently > > > in the mempool: > > > 71a6cde341d03ba48cc385bbbdef98784a81981c37fd8b34ec6df36aa7342232 > > > 08f72a3332805fe4b1d41fbf33953a8c87838d7e9b6b20ee3c0c5a780fdd6163 > > > 9664b984437541a1d01fd5ea13b699daff0908e5bc151369ebccb00d5042c51d . I > > > > This was a small error. These transactions were the README.md file I added > > to > > help me find the files again after losing my memory of this experience. > > > > > expect them to confirm within a few hours. Not all the messages are > > > uploaded yet, including some left out. I plan to upload the ones I > > > left out. [for people learning to read my mind: this error is > > > analogous to how blockchain timestamps are not monotonic] > > > > > > ---------- Forwarded message --------- > > > From: Karl <[email protected]> > > > Date: Sat, Dec 26, 2020 at 7:22 AM > > > Subject: Check in > > > To: Jonathan Chack <[email protected]> > > > Cc: J William Semich <[email protected]>, Kyla Hershey-Wilson > > > <[email protected]>, Katrina Semich <[email protected]> > > > > > > > > > [sorry if I cc'd the wrong person, I am a little confused, trying to > > > include invested parties appropriately] > > > > > > Hi, > > > > > > > I understand that the videotaping is important for you and I want to > > > > support you in this regard. I have located a local therapist that > > > > currently uses this type of therapy his name is Andrew Morton and he > > > > has an office in Rutland, VT. I would be happy to do a referral for you > > > > to his office should you decide you would like to try that type of > > > > therapy. > > > > > > > > Let me know your thoughts > > > > > > > > Christopher Chadwick, MS, LADC, AFC > > > > Director > > > > > > > > Forensic Consultation & Counseling Service, LLC > > > > > > I may have gone through an abusive politcal situation of brainwashing > > > and slavery, that I don't believe has resolved yet, out there. I > > > haven't really talked with anybody about this yet. I'd like to be > > > able to personally record the sessions when I want to, so that I can > > > review them later, and for others to find if something happens to me. > > > Do you know where to go to find this therapy? > > > > > > Thanks so much,
