the lecturer related a story of a mind control / ritual abuse survivor client of 16 years she got angry with the provider, and switched and said "YOU DON'T KNOW!!" the lecturer copied the body language, and showed in her muscles a huge display of how two parts were in conflict inside the client (the lecturer was unaware she was doing this) one part was stopping the other from expressing with great strength and pain the other part [was expressing, maybe the anger, in a sustained way [similar to a struggle like when two swords clash in a pause during a childhood swordfight, pushing each other (random analogy to similar strengths paired))] [we misplaced most of the expression due ot so much going on, lecturer talking [of such intense things. intense in a more-meaningful-than-ever way, not a 'scary' way.]]
the lecturer said victims almost never express anger (it's maybe notable here that it looks like the anger of a perpetrator was being held associated with the expression). it's so sad to be experiencing this myself/ourself as watching it. this angry stopping-of-talking, stopping-of-remembering, stopping-of-understanding. basically, these powerful people influencing society so much are actively and presently raping and murdering innocent people to blow off steam and they use it to promulgate the behavior. there is of course so much more. we state this core thing some so as to attempt to reduce the countering energy somewhere.
