Hello, Could you all please pray for me to be able to put everything in God's hands and leave it there. There are several things that are causing me worry. Some may be founded concerns and others may just be something to worry about because that's what my mind tends to do, especially lately.
First, there's a problem between the caretaker at Oral Hull and I. We have a major misunderstanding. I did write a letter to try to explain but that made me worry more. So that I don't just go talking about my frustration with others to just anyone, I have my safe people I talk with and both happened to be at Oral Hull that day. I was talking to one in the bathroom where the door had to be kept open because it wasn't able to be opened by someone in a wheelchair with dextarity issues. So, I was talking away in frustration to my safe person about why the caretaker was handling something a certain way and suddenly, she snuck into the bathroom and confronted me with a very firm voice saying, "I wish you'd talk to my face rather than writing letters to Jeff." Until a few days ago, I hadn't written letters to Jeff concerning the caretaker but Todd did. I helped him with some of the wording is all. I just don't want anymore confrontation with the caretaker. I'm feeling really anxious about that. the person who bought the doves for me and the caretaker are real good friends, and so I am worried about someone taking away the gifts given. I just want no more dealing with the caretaker. also, my term is coming up on the board for Oral Hull. I told him that I wanted to run again. He told me to write a paragraph and email it to him. I did do all of that. However I haven't heard from the guy if he got my written paragraph stuff. I didn't have the person's email addres and he said he would give it to me, but he never did. Anyway, I forwarded my paragraphs to a few people and a couple of them passed it on, but I haven't heard anything. I tried calling him once and got his wife with no further response from him. I don't get a good feeling about this. I don't know what to think about that. Oral Hull is becoming something I hate and it makes me very sad. I keep having this feeling I'm not going to get the position because of the president trying to replace all the blind commoners with monied people or those who have power or access to resources in some way. I really pray that the president will not get elected this year and let someone else in to office. Also, there's rehab and the job thing and I just don't know what to do about that. Next, Two out of three doves are doing wonderful. The third one is losing feathers. He doesn't like hands. he's terrified of hands and I don't know how to cure him of his fear plus he's decided to either pick his feathers out or it's multing season, or he has canker like Marvin did. I don't know... It beats me. We can't afford more heavy bills. So, please please pray that there's no canker and I can't and won't go through that canker sickness business again. Not right after Marvin. I don't want another blessing to be turned into a terrible thing. I don't want to watch that kind of suffering again. I don't want to be over anxious and thinking the worst but I know my mind. So I could definitely use some prayer. If Gandalf is okay then that's great, but if not, then I actually am praying the Lord not keep him hear to suffer in sickness if he can't get well. Take him now before I get much more attached. Or, let him live and be well. the bright side of this is I have two healthy doves and that's a good thing. I just want to be a good animal owner and maybe there's a reason I didn't get to have children. Lol, I think I'd be a nervous wreck trying to make sure everything was okay, and in the process make them nervous. Finally, We're not sure what to do about our church either. It's really involved and I just don't know what to even think. the worship is not even satisfactory to me and I need stronger meat than what I'm getting. Both Todd and I feel this way. When I worship, I don't want to just stick my big toe in the River of God. I want to go swimming in deep water. I want to be chalenged in the word. I don't care if I resist at first, because at least I'd know I was beginning the growing process. I have tried to leave that church before but Kelly the pastor came back and talked to us. So, we're praying about what to do. Finally, I feel like I'm going through a time of wanting to get back into the Word of God and am not disciplined. Anyway, I just need to be more disciplined. also, as a Bible study leader, I feel unqualified to do what I've have been doing. I just would like prayer for being more effective and for there not to be such a need for me to bhe the main pushing force and draging some of the others, resisting, with todd and I. the Bible study and prayer times are starting to improve, but I need more. Also, I really would like to not have to make mistakes out of ignorance. Whoever said ignorance is bliss is flippin' nuts!!! Ignorance is not bliss... It's a but kicker where concequences are wreeped again and again. I think I'm really done with that. So, I justpray for clear dirrection, discernment, strength, Clarity of mind to know when I've made a good decision, confidence, and a refreshing from God. Whatever else you want to pray is a good thing and just let the Lord lead you. Blessings, Sean --~--~---------~--~----~------------~-------~--~----~ You received this message because you are subscribed to the Google Groups "Deaf-Blind Inspirational Life Group" group. To post to this group, send email to [email protected] To unsubscribe from this group, send email to [EMAIL PROTECTED] For more options, visit this group at http://groups.google.com/group/DBILG?hl=en -~----------~----~----~----~------~----~------~--~---
