Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: TM in Malls

[Llundrub]

I hear you. The lack of nature support means one thing to me. Maharishi's thing either works or it doesn't. If it is to generete world peace/enlightenment, then it will do so. Its now or never. There are no other times when such a concept could be more apporopriate. I seem to be getting good support lately, (through hard work too), and pretty much getting towards everything I ever wanted in life. I LOVE IT !     -----Well, there were many factors involved. I can't detail the whole picture for you, but here's a few elements.  One, I didn't know exactly what I wanted. Deep down inside I knew I wanted something but wasn't sure what. That cloudiness of course manifested as cloudiness.  I knew I wanted a good woman, and that I did find.  I have been with her faithfully for fifteen years.  And happy.  So that's one success story.  As a kid I was a nihilist and anarchist so I wouldn't have been able to manifest anything at all with that mental framework. I had to change my own mind.  Support of nature therefore had much more intricate goals for me as far as the working through problems in such a way as to eventually make me thankful to be alive at all in general, and appreciative for what I had.    Coming from LA I had been taught to value things by skin deep judgements. That's not what I wanted to do or be but I didn't know what real values were. It took me a long time to get some.  Support of nature is a fine catch-all phrase but what does it mean really?  Does it mean one just gets any old thing that they want on a whim, or does it mean that they somehow come deeper in tune with those subtle and unvoiced yearnings for the things that bring depth and breadth to ones life itself. This was the lesson I had to learn before I could even have support of nature. Ii had to find value in order for there to be such a thing at all. I know this sounds weird as most people learn this early on, but my father died when I was 8 and I was left isolated in family of women who couldn't guide me. I had to figure it all out myself.   Finally, I had superficial desires like for sex, money, popularity, health, and so on, but none of these things in themselves have any meaning without them being by products of a deeper will. It's that will that I had to find and earn the right to wield. Ironically, I found that will in studying the Bodhisattva motivation, because I found that my whole life I have wanted to champion the underdog.   I really didn't know who I was until I accepted the Bodhisattva vows once again. Then all of a sudden, the previous pointlessness of my life made sense, I was bound here to serve.Now I know what I should be doing at every step. Serving. The lesson was always there but I didn't see it. I have always been serving and yet because I was so selfish I had great enmity for those who I served.  Because until recently I only served myself, and yet I always felt hollow as a person and so how could I serve that hollowness?  No matter what I tried to fill myself with I still felt hollow. But I found that if I serve others I am able to use my ego as a tool to further serve without having to eradicate or efface my own personality.  And the plans for this are in the works in a business that I am working on with a friend from the inner city. Details withheld.   Hard work. Yes, I have been there for a long time.  I am proud that because of my profession I have the actual scars to prove it, and being as dense as I am, I need these reminders to show me what I have done, and also because I have nothing in terms of material gain as of yet to show my accomplishments.         Take organic ghee for four days every 4 months (or 6 months). First day in the morning 25 mils, then 50, then 75 mils, then 100. Then castor oil at 60 mils on the last evening (with orange juice and orange to bite into). Then shit all night. This will detoxify the former drug use and make you feel better overall. It will even detox the brain. I know you probably know this, and I know they changed it a bit, but it is still a good method. Very powerful. Worth getting back to. World peace? hmmmm...hope so.   ----I prefer nasya with brahmi ghee, two nights in a row every year or so. Hot baths and my sadhanas clear me out as fast as I need them to. Kundalini burns the rest up without a trace. Mystical, and personal. The best way. Thanks for the advice. Castor oil huh?  We'll see... maybe... To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/   To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED]   Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service.