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I stopped following any sort of TM
instruction about ten years ago when I decided that the technique was for me.
Not I for it. Now I do usually an hour of TM once a day with the advanced
techniques and maybe a sidhi or two. I can't do more than that because my mind
grows just machine like and leaden if I do them all. Then no mandala readings, I
go directly into chanting and my Vajrayana practices. Later in the day if I feel
like meditating more I do an open eye technique to balance awareness into the
environment so I'm not just a closed eye cave practitioner.
This is the main thing for me - I
do TM only because I have done it so long and it has become very easy. But that
wasn't the case the first couple years. It took me a long time to work through
the internal conflict which prevented an effortless thought of any sort. I
can and do be transcendent naturally and it takes little effort for me to get
flow on any mantra now. Sometimes TM prevents me from being able to function
altogether and I have to give it up, sometimes for years at a time. I do
TM for me. Not for Maharishi, not for the world, not for the Movement. I'll
do with it what I will.
That said, back when I loved TM I
used to get checked like three times a week just to get an extra meditation.
Now, I check TM to see if it matches my needs.
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