I am a Sidha and MIU grad. So three years in the domes and another year as a TMer in the other meditation areas. My experience of bliss is that it is shallow, though depending upon how it juxtaposes with everything else. I have experienced huge amounts of bliss. And yet, without the ability to be in tune with the environment or share it with others I have always found the bliss a spacey burden.
So then many many years later, I have decided that I am tired of the disconnect between environment and inner bliss. I feel quite fine but I have to anchor my mind to the relative in order to get into the style of the relative so as to make it good. IE., I have to get into the food being prepped, in the pot, on the plate. I cannot just throw it where it should be it must have attention to all details and be placed with concern. I found it very difficult to live in a dualistic manner and think that only part of life is important - the meditating - when all others are depending upon me for my product. And then I am having some experiences of some things. And I am not digging Maharishi any longer. I am feeling the end of the TM path nearing. I decide that I will surely reincarnate again. This person has not finished. I decide to look for a new religion that will be around in my next life. Something yogic. I am thinking that it would be of great value to know how the absolute and relative interface and what are those colors and lights? So I get into the tantras, first Hindu and then Buddhist. It was a surprise to find descriptions of all my experiences in Buddhist tantras rather than Hindu. And I go to Kalachakra, Guhyagarbha, and many secret teachings. And about five years ago I meet a guru, who has since passed away, and just knoing him is like a ray of optimism. The first I have ever felt. It's a whole different feeling from bliss of TM which is overwhelming dissolution of boundaries. This new joy feels like life itself. And since then aI have been doing that guru's sadhanas and the feeling of joy has grown. It is like the feeling of the absolute joy through the relative joy. Like purity of crystal amidst other colored gems. It is like the knowing that life itself is perfect and excellent. That was something I never got through TM. I felt through TM fluffy and free and disassociated. But now I feel quite acute in perception of the joy of all things. None of them stray from the self same primordial optimism of the absolute. In point of fact the relative is the absolute and the absolute is the relative. Neither one strays from the others for a moment. Thus since then I have had problems keeping myself from doing all the bad things I love to do. Knowing how perfect all things are. This tantra is a secret teaching for persons who do not care to discriminate between true and false and good and bad. People are always saying then that Hitler must be good by my definition. Not so. By my definition all things are good, not necessarily their actions though. For instance, pool table is good. Playing is good. Playing to win and losing is bad. But if one is just playing to play then all is good. I prefer the joy of all things to the bliss of nothing. But both together are a powerful tonic to the sickness of others. The nature of life itself is all giving - it is like the wish fulfilling jewel. There is no desire and no means of fulfillment outside of this Earth Mother. So Yo Bhu! Peace.
