Unc:
> > I consider true levitation and other siddhis in the 
> > same boat.  Unless you consider the Rama guy I worked
> > with enlightened, my suspicion is that if you thought
> > it through, you'd stop considering levitation a signpost
> > of enlightenment, too.  He could hover and walk around
> > in mid-air like gangbusters; does that mean he was 
> > enlightened?  Me, I don't think so.  Only enlightenment
> > means you're enlightened.

Lurk:
> Okay, unc.  When you came on board, I checked Rama out.  I read 
some 
> interviews he did, and I came to a conclusion based on these 
> interviews and his first interview in particular, that this guy was 
> absolutely, positively enlightened.  In fact if there are said to 
> be 12, or 5 or some number of enlightened people on the planet at 
> any given time, he was one of them.  Then I read more and learned 
> about some of the peculuarities about him, I could easily see 
> where people would dismiss him as part or all fraud.  But I have 
> to say, from what little I have read, and it has not been 
> extensive, this guy was enlightened.  

There are days that I agree with you.  Mostly I just
say, truthfully, that I don't know.

There is absolutely no question in my mind that when
I first ran into him (1981), I was sitting in the room
with enlightenment.  When you meditated with the guy,
there was not the slightest possibility of having a
thought.  Instant samadhi, sometimes for hours on end.

Towards the end of my time with him, I felt that less
and less, and finally he pretty much stopped meditating
with his students, so I can't say for sure whether the
same energy was still present.  I left a couple of years
before he died, and only saw him a few times during that
period, so I also can't say much about that period, and
what he was like just before he beat feet.

> Maybe he decided to push the envelope in some odd ways, 
> but I don't think he could ever lose that total enlightenment.  
> I know you don't care to discuss this subject too much, but 
> just wanted to make these comments.

It's Ok, really.  I just didn't want to be perceived as
pushing Rama or his trip here.  I don't really want to
be perceived that way anywhere.  I cherish the time I
spent with him, and am immensely grateful for all he
taught me.  But at the same time, if he were still alive,
I wouldn't be studying with him.

Go figure.  The having enlightenment and losing it bit 
is the mindfuck.

Some people don't think it can happen.  Their dogma says
so and their intuition says so.  I know better, and knew
before I ever met Rama, because it's happened to me.  I
was having long (2-3 weeks) CC flashes back when I was
still in the TM movement, the first on my TTC and a few
other times subsequently.  Then things happened and I 
left the TM movement and was on my own for a while, and
the flashes of CC continued.  Then I ran into Rama and
they continued some more.  Then I left Rama's study and
was on my own again and they still happen from time to
time.  I've gotten to the point where I don't really seek
them or miss them when they go away. 

The point is that, so far, they've gone away.  One day
I'm kissing the swamp of Maya and the next morning the
transcendent is there 24/7 for a week or so, and then 
it's back to Maya.  Go figure.

So the thing with Rama was, having experienced what I'm
pretty damned sure was CC, even if for brief periods of
time, I kinda recognized that energy when I ran into him.
I walked into a room and here was this preppy-looking
Western guy sitting on a day-glo afghan and talking about
normal, everyday L.A. things and being really, really
funny.  I like funny; I was down with funny.  And I was
down with the things he talked about; Rama could 
*definitely* talk the talk.  But I wasn't buying into
the enlightened thing yet.  Until we mediated.  He put
some Tangerine Dream on the sound system and told us
just to sit and close our eyes and feel our heart chakras.
Then he did the same thing, and it was fuckin' OVER for
me as a skeptic, man.  There was no "me" to be skeptical.

And over the years I felt that same energy *coexist*, in
activity, with the damnedest things.  Movies, Disneyland,
the Sonora desert in the middle of the night, Windows on
the World, the red light district of Amsterdam.  It was
like having Zaphod Beebelbrox and his "Anything for a 
weird life" philosophy as a spiritual teacher.  :-)

I loved every minute of it in those early years.  So it's
really not his outrageous behavior in some areas like sex
with his students or driving a Porsche or renting Carnegie
Hall for his talks that bothered me.  I was *down* with 
that stuff; it was cutting edge.

But somewhere along the Way, things got weird, and finally
they just got too weird for me.  It got to the point where
the only thing that was keeping me there was the hope that
he'd sit and meditate with us again, and I'd feel that
same eternity that nailed me the first night I met him.
And after waiting and waiting, when he *did* finally sit
and meditate with us, that energy just wasn't there, at
least to the same extent as when I met him.

I am perfectly willing to accept that this might be a 
drop in *my* perception, not his state of consciousness.
But if I learned nothing else from him, I did learn to
trust my intuition, and it was telling me to leave.  I
left.  I'm happy I did.  I still miss his laugh sometimes,
but I wasn't hearing it that often towards the last days
I spent with him, either.

I appreciate you taking the time to check him out, and 
I certainly appreciate your feelings about him.  He was
without question the most interesting person I have ever
encountered in this incarnation.  I may never encounter
another quite as interesting.  I certainly haven't in
the time since I last saw him.

He's a puzzle, an enigma, a koan.  He was when he was
alive, and he is in death.  If my words and feelings 
about him, either here or in my book, sometimes seem
contradictory, it's because he was a 6-foot-4 walking
*mass* of contradictions.  In my opinion, enlightenment
was a daily companion to those contradictions for many
years.  It might have been his companion right up to
the end.  I don't know.  I really don't know.  I probably
never will.  And I thank him for that, too.

Unc






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