*sticks a stick out * "friend!" ...........'friend' ?? "yes, friend,here,have you a moment?" (runs along water s edge)"here-" *sticks out a branchy stick* .................'.Glug glug..' "I mean you no harm,there's a warm place over there-".. ...............'What?The water about is loud'.......... *extends stick* *talks through her eyes (grabs on) (steadies self on stones and steps to ground) "come?The ground is warm here- Sit?" 'The waves were so loud crashing,I couldn't hear myself think.......' "The loud mmmmmm. warm?There ia a bag of herbs I brought;may be of some comfort to you? brahmi, tulsi shankhapushpi ashwagandha some valerian&musta tea almond milk- here, I wrote L - O - V - E - in the sugar before I put it in, will you have some tea?" .......Why, yes, yes, it would be nice, a little refreshing' "oh good,I couldn't bear to see you suffering" 'I have this....' "Oh, xanax,amazing it didn't get wet-the dentist used to give that to me because I would shake.He couldn't do any work on me.It just put me to sleep.I still had anxiety,then i would go to sleep.I think something else would have been better for me.I don't know if it is good for you.The more I get to know, the more I realize I know so little!So much to understand. When I write in my journal,I re read it and put it together like a puzzle.It looks different on paper somehow.Oh Dear One, I have rambled, have I offended?" ....'No,I am weary from paddling against the current,drone on while I rest....' "ha ha!Okay, well,my mind is a wild horse-I am giving time to rein it and tame it and re train it lately.I am embarrased to admit to you, but is truth." .'.....mmmmm.....' I read some things lately of help to me, if they are of some gift to your wellness, please take them and put in your pocket there- my mind is never quiet I read on a website that the brain is more protein dependent than people realize. This, to my dismay.I don't like thinking of the suffering part, it doesn't taste good to me either,and when I try to eat it,to help my mind,and my not clotting too well blood, well then the next day-it is hurting me, cramps,ugh, too much evacuation, uncomfortable. It's not too bad if I try shrimp/crab...that whole thing is a can of worms so to speak. I was reading the brain is 75%water, too, and needs more water than people realize. So here my fight is with eat protein somehow everyday so my mind can make proper connections with the synapses , hopefully .Waiting now, for it to heal and be well. I do meditation too, and ask questions of myself-what am i feeling there, in my heart?What is that in my brain?Why am I thinking/feeling that?I am afraid.I think why?I tell it go and sprinkle wing dust on it so it can fly away." .............'wing dust?Is there such a thing?!!!' "I don't know, but they would not be willed away, so I pulled out some wing dust out of mt heart one day, sprinkled it on the hanging thought, and it flew away.They go when I do that.I can't explain or prove in a court of public opinion, I just know it was there, then it wasn't.I think I can, and want to let it go and replace it with what I want to do, and think I can. I read recently that knots in your muscles are because one is in a place of not flowing.Squooshed up.Move to the side-or that other side, and do something different. Do you think that you, before you were born decided on this life, this way, to help yourself learn certain things and all is for the good that way?This helped me.This is good,somewhere, somehow,something, some purpose, some thing...I would help you in some concrete way if I could,friend, but I know not how-I could rub your forehead w/ this sesame oil, is that good for you?" '..................You have many words...' " "-----------------------------------------------------I know,it gets me into trouble.I have much to learn. Then you will flow-when you are cramped &squooshed, move.I was reading that
--- On Wed, 6/17/09, min.pige <[email protected]> wrote: From: min.pige <[email protected]> Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: More advice, please To: [email protected] Date: Wednesday, June 17, 2009, 10:36 PM > > what do you think: should I take it? > > Pro's and con's, please. I'm desperate! > :::::::::::: ::::::::: ::::::::: ::::::::: ::::::::: :; Not an easy answer! If you have the potential for addiction, might not be a good choice long term. Xanax has a short half-life, so you will get immediate relief which will fade out after a few hours. Xanax is the treatment of choice for panic attacks, do you have the signature 'impending doom feeling'? For general anxiety and certainly for depression, i don't understand this was prescribed. There are better meds for those issues, which will last longer, be smoother, less side effects and no addiction potential. You probably wouldn't want to take a Xanax again as one wears off, to keep yourself level on Xanax, it is highly addictive. That said, it is a life-threatening withdrawal for an addict, so one would definitely need to detox under medical supervision in a hospital or rehab-type setting....not a home withdrawal. Very dangerous. Takes a while to build up to that level of addiction so short term no worries, and you will feel immediate relief. But so will deep breathing give you immediate relief. Don't suffer. Take it now, exactly as prescribed. You can continue to research better treatments/provider s. Any psychiatrist will tell you that for psychotropic meds, you need to be seen for evaluation/diagnosi s and treatment from a psychiatrist. Can your GP refer you (or can you get in on your own) to see a psychiatrist? That is the best route if you're serious you want to try these types of meds. Might be an idea to start writing down everything you can about your symptoms, when do they occur, how do they feel, are some episodes worse than others, what happens immediately preceding these 'attacks', what gives any relief. Also some notes about what is happening in the major areas of your life right now. When you see the psychiatrist, the more info you can give, the better he can diagnose=target the correct med from the start. These type of meds (psychotropics) involve the art of prescribing. Sometimes you need a lot of patience til they find the correct dose or combination with other drugs, time of day to take, etc. Do not suffer. Do not be afraid.
