--- In [email protected], "jim_flanegin" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> 
wrote:
> --- In [email protected], "sparaig" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
> > --- In [email protected], "jim_flanegin" 
<[EMAIL PROTECTED]> 
> > wrote:
> > > --- In [email protected], "sparaig" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> 
> wrote:
> > > <snip> So atheists can't be in GC or UC?
> > > 
> > > Please define atheist.
> > 
> > Technically, someone who doesn't believe in a deity...
> 
> Why would someone who didn't believe in God want to merge with Him? 
I 
> don't get it. What does an atheist believe in?


****

The reality can be surprising.
 
I grew up in an atheist family. I remember my mother mentioning God 
only once, when I was sick. According to her I had got the measles, 
because I was so evil and God was punishing me. My father occasionally 
lectured us about the foolishness of religions. And I agreed with him. 
I have never felt a desire or a need to pray.

In my inner dialogues I was sometimes also pondering of the concept of 
God. I ended up not denying God's existence, but saw  that  this 
entity transcends my understanding and therefore I cannot form any 
picture internally of God. Therefore He cannot be an object of belief 
for me either.

I also came to the conclusion that if God is the embodiment of Truth, 
he cannot expect from me more than I function according to what I 
understand to be true, even if that meant the denial of God.

The irony is that when I at age 16 had my first conscious awakening 
shift, I hadn't consciously felt any desire to merge with God. After 
this awakening I saw that there is subtle deep intelligence permeating 
and beyond everything, which takes care of evolution and also of the 
inner growth of us humans. My trying to become something or being 
something disturbs the workings of this intelligence in me. If I try 
to become something my conscious intelligence cannot stay in tune with 
this deep intelligence in nature.

I saw that life or this deep intelligence accepts me just as I am with 
all my defects. Trying to be something means denial and non-acceptance 
of what is. I think this applies also to trying to get enlightened.
The basis for growth and transformation is accepting and then 
gradually penetrating what is, not by putting your attention elsewhere.
 
Whatever your stage of awareness is, just be present and observe your 
deep motives, emotions, and energetic states as sincerely and as 
truthfully as you can, even if it might feel painful. Don't avoid 
feeling painful and heavy emotions. This avoidance is most potent in 
creating suffering and stagnation. Also relaxing meditation like TM is 
good as it helps to connect consciously to the more subtle levels.
Deep relaxed breathing is useful in helping becoming more aware of 
suppressed unpleasant emotions and sensations and transforming them.

Avoid excuses and using consciously your intelligence to defensive 
purposes. Inner growth and evolution is that simple. Sudden leaps to a 
higher level of awareness will appear on its own, when you are ready. 
Belief in God is not a necessity and in some phases can become an 
obstacle too.

Irmeli





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