I'm sorry I wrote so harshly about what you had written. I think you were sincerely expressing your feelings. But I do think it's risky to draw a lot of conclusions about what a person is really like based only on their posts to this forum.
--- In [email protected], Emily Reyn <emilymae.reyn@...> wrote: > > Wrong Feste - I have never claimed maturity as my strong point. Â If I had it > together, I'd be making a bunch of money right now and saving quantities for > retirement, I assure you. Â Not putting myself at future financial risk, > praying for my brain and being to get it together....I bet Share isn't doing > that. Â She is smarter than me in terms of knowing how to take care of her > material needs. Â > > I am not blaming - I am offering up my conclusions and observations and > understanding after 6 months of watching her posts cross the forum and > attempting to have many conversations with her. Â I don't care how she feels > about what I wrote - I never said she was supposed to feel "grateful" (She > has no basis on which to understand such a statement from me, of all people. > Â I have no credibility with her at all, in fact, she has established that > opinion many many times) Â > > I do have compassion for her, not pity, compassion - to the extent that I > have an understanding of what that means - she can take that or leave it. Â > Â > > My guess is...she'll take what you said and adopt it into her construct that > I am "after her" and never "hear" what I am trying to say. Â It's too scary. > Â Better to stay in denial, don't you think? Â > > > From: feste37 <feste37@...> > To: [email protected] > Sent: Sunday, December 2, 2012 1:36 PM > Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: to Judy to Barry PS > > > Â > Actually, it's just a variation of the "I'm very mature; you are so fucked > up," argument that masquerades as compassion. It points the finger of blame > at the ingrate, who is then supposed to feel grateful for the "compassion" > shown to her. > > --- In [email protected], Ravi Chivukula <chivukula.ravi@> wrote: > > > > I just have one word for this dear Emily.......W......O......W !!!! > > > > To add more - how compassionate, how loving, how mature, how intelligent, a > > brilliant analysis of Share and many others like her in similar situations. > > Shame on the likes of Steve, Xeno, laughinggull, feste, Buck - hope they > > can learn something from here. > > > > On Sun, Dec 2, 2012 at 11:45 AM, emilymae.reyn <emilymae.reyn@>wrote: > > > > > Dear Sharester, I'm having trouble letting go. But, I promise I will after > > > this post. *Really.* I will demonstrate the letting go action to you - > > > it's > > > good practice for me. Before I go for now, I will say that I hope you > > > print > > > out and show the last two posts re: wts that you wrote and I responded to, > > > that you never got back to me on, to your pastoral counselor. If she tells > > > you that "yes, you are right, you have maintained your integrity through > > > the whole conversation and these people challenging you are just bullies > > > and mean and unfairly abusive," you will know for sure that you are paying > > > her for nothing. > > > > > > First of all, you didn't even give me the time of day to respond, and I > > > put a lot of energy and effort into those posts to you - recognizing you > > > as > > > a human being. > > > > > > Second, you might think about, in the privacy of your own prayer routine, > > > thanking Ann, raunchy, Judy, Ravi, Robin, Ravi and I for processing all of > > > your negative emotions over the last 6 months for you. For my part, I did > > > this out of love and concern for you Share (yes, that irritating universal > > > love of you as another human being.) > > > > > > This tactic of yours - launching passive attacks and then running away and > > > asking those you launched spears at to do your dirty work is a good one, > > > isn't it? Then, you feel better and can skip off to the Dome, presenting > > > nothing to those you meet on the yellow brick road, but generosity, > > > openness, and love. I bet you act as a source of knowledge to others', > > > don't you. > > > > > > I bet you include a lot of information to them on food and supplements > > > they should be taking. You outed yourself by mistake when you said you had > > > had food issues all your life. Are you aware of what that means and how > > > having issues with this most basic function in life (eating) can through > > > time fully affect the construct of your thought process, and forever-more > > > create a need to subconsciously protect yourself so you never have to deal > > > with it and the self-preservation issues that come with it? I am sorry > > > you've had to deal with this. It's a survival issue, I know. I don't have > > > it, but in the past, I have been intimately involved with someone who has. > > > Comes with endless denial, I'm aware. > > > > > > The years of dedication to healing; the living in a healing community; the > > > collection of people and healers and philosophies support the construct of > > > denial you have built. You never have to get truly real Share or speak for > > > yourself - you have learned the healing language and just have to invoke > > > experts on your behalf over and over again. You can hide forever and act > > > like an innocent victim, whenever anyone asks to be validated for their > > > own > > > individual thought process that disagrees with yours - because you are > > > right, because you have done nothing to apologize or make amends for, > > > because there is something wrong with them and they need to experience > > > "complete healing." > > > > > > I am sorry that you have had to go the this kind of extreme in your life > > > to self-preserve. It is a testament of our instinct, as humans, to > > > survive. > > > I am sorry that, in all cases, you twist reality to fit your own worldview > > > and summarily dismiss and attack anyone and everything that won't conform > > > to your way of thinking. Too threatening isn't it. You are missing out on > > > so much Share, but it's beyond me at this point to try and convince you of > > > this. I do believe you are fully entrenched in your vision of yourself and > > > your own rock solid storyline - and you have built an enormous safety net > > > of people who see only what you show them - the bliss bubble of the > > > positive characteristics you want to be known for. It's sad to watch. > > > > > > You placing me in a cult, because you were too afraid to be honest and > > > real, is predictable; as was your refusal to address it. Easier to just > > > forever claim you were "right" and relentlessly impose your reality on FFL > > > with no interest in supporting or discussing it. Another example is > > > continuing to invoke the term "wishing complete healing" on people and FFL > > > at large without ever clearly examining what that means - how dare anyone > > > challenge you on this meaningless term. Right? Also, on ousting Judy, Ann, > > > and raunchy from your readers' list and I'm guessing me, after this post, > > > if you have the guts to read it. So many other examples Share of your > > > refusing to actually interact with anyone who has tried, unless you are > > > sure you can control the outcome. > > > > > > But, you keep reading Barry, although he was a bit hard on you today, > > > don't you think? Just return to the innocent little girl stance and use a > > > "poo" extension for him....he did take a large poo today on you didn't he? > > > > > > Just throw us all away Share and keep putting us all down - we challenged > > > you on your reality and you are so shame-based deep down, that it is > > > simply > > > unacceptable. You must retain your vision of yourself at all costs, right? > > > I am sorry you are so shame-based. Of course it isn't your fault - you > > > didn't deserve whatever created this within, but you are responsible for > > > what you say and do and how you behave now. The only solution, as I said > > > before, is rigorous honesty. You don't need to exercise that here, but > > > don't forget that I know what I am talking about in this regard. > > > > > > Stop caring about what the other posters think about you. I've given up on > > > worrying about that myself. It's kind of freeing. I'd be mad at Judy too, > > > if I were you Share, just fyi. My ego would be upset. But, I would still > > > try to pay attention to what she was saying. She doesn't run away Share - > > > she puts herself out there consistently and without regard to the attacks > > > she might get in return. > > > > > > This is my final thought. I am going to let you go Share, in love and with > > > compassion. But, I will not forget the way that you treated me in > > > FFL-land. > > > However, I will "leave the door open" for you anytime you feel like > > > addressing me in any way you want. Keep smiling and throwing darts and > > > launching spiked spears for as long as it's working for you, even if it's > > > your whole life. You have another one coming, right? Emily. > > > > > >
