Thank you Ann. You are so on the mark as always; it's painful to read. I crossed the line with Share here though, and Share, you have my sincerest apology. You may take as many pot shots or real shots at me as necessary to restore balance and I will try hard to do my penance and stay in humility. Ann is right, I am a tough girl and I can take it (although I will cry.) When I say to you "Remember, you are not a victim," I'm talking to myself Share. After all.....(are we tired of this yet?) Robin is feeling the shame I'm in; damn him. He's going to be harder than I thought to take down. Forgive me..."Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for thou art with me, thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me."
________________________________ From: awoelflebater <[email protected]> To: [email protected] Sent: Sunday, December 2, 2012 8:33 PM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: to Judy to Barry PS --- In [email protected], "feste37" <feste37@...> wrote: > > Actually, it's just a variation of the "I'm very mature; you are so fucked > up," argument that masquerades as compassion. It points the finger of blame > at the ingrate, who is then supposed to feel grateful for the "compassion" > shown to her. No, I don't thing so Feste. Granted, Emily's post was hard hitting but she is not trying pass it off as some compassionate love letter. Emily is frustrated with Share. Emily has spent a lot of time and energy on Share. Emily is interested in real communication and understanding between Share and herself. Emily does not appear to be some sadistic bully attempting to browbeat someone for the sake of watching someone squirm. Emily appears to have a deep experience of life, including the hard parts, so she is no fool. Emily is a woman. Emily appears willing to have her mind changed if Share would be willing, in turn, to offer up something that resembles real truthfulness or at least earnest searching. Only Emily can decide when she has had enough of getting nothing but subterfuge in return and it appears that might just be the case now. > > --- In [email protected], Ravi Chivukula <chivukula.ravi@> wrote: > > > > I just have one word for this dear Emily.......W......O......W !!!! > > > > To add more - how compassionate, how loving, how mature, how intelligent, a > > brilliant analysis of Share and many others like her in similar situations. > > Shame on the likes of Steve, Xeno, laughinggull, feste, Buck - hope they > > can learn something from here. > > > > On Sun, Dec 2, 2012 at 11:45 AM, emilymae.reyn <emilymae.reyn@>wrote: > > > > > Dear Sharester, I'm having trouble letting go. But, I promise I will after > > > this post. *Really.* I will demonstrate the letting go action to you - > > > it's > > > good practice for me. Before I go for now, I will say that I hope you > > > print > > > out and show the last two posts re: wts that you wrote and I responded to, > > > that you never got back to me on, to your pastoral counselor. If she tells > > > you that "yes, you are right, you have maintained your integrity through > > > the whole conversation and these people challenging you are just bullies > > > and mean and unfairly abusive," you will know for sure that you are paying > > > her for nothing. > > > > > > First of all, you didn't even give me the time of day to respond, and I > > > put a lot of energy and effort into those posts to you - recognizing you > > > as > > > a human being. > > > > > > Second, you might think about, in the privacy of your own prayer routine, > > > thanking Ann, raunchy, Judy, Ravi, Robin, Ravi and I for processing all of > > > your negative emotions over the last 6 months for you. For my part, I did > > > this out of love and concern for you Share (yes, that irritating universal > > > love of you as another human being.) > > > > > > This tactic of yours - launching passive attacks and then running away and > > > asking those you launched spears at to do your dirty work is a good one, > > > isn't it? Then, you feel better and can skip off to the Dome, presenting > > > nothing to those you meet on the yellow brick road, but generosity, > > > openness, and love. I bet you act as a source of knowledge to others', > > > don't you. > > > > > > I bet you include a lot of information to them on food and supplements > > > they should be taking. You outed yourself by mistake when you said you had > > > had food issues all your life. Are you aware of what that means and how > > > having issues with this most basic function in life (eating) can through > > > time fully affect the construct of your thought process, and forever-more > > > create a need to subconsciously protect yourself so you never have to deal > > > with it and the self-preservation issues that come with it? I am sorry > > > you've had to deal with this. It's a survival issue, I know. I don't have > > > it, but in the past, I have been intimately involved with someone who has. > > > Comes with endless denial, I'm aware. > > > > > > The years of dedication to healing; the living in a healing community; the > > > collection of people and healers and philosophies support the construct of > > > denial you have built. You never have to get truly real Share or speak for > > > yourself - you have learned the healing language and just have to invoke > > > experts on your behalf over and over again. You can hide forever and act > > > like an innocent victim, whenever anyone asks to be validated for their > > > own > > > individual thought process that disagrees with yours - because you are > > > right, because you have done nothing to apologize or make amends for, > > > because there is something wrong with them and they need to experience > > > "complete healing." > > > > > > I am sorry that you have had to go the this kind of extreme in your life > > > to self-preserve. It is a testament of our instinct, as humans, to > > > survive. > > > I am sorry that, in all cases, you twist reality to fit your own worldview > > > and summarily dismiss and attack anyone and everything that won't conform > > > to your way of thinking. Too threatening isn't it. You are missing out on > > > so much Share, but it's beyond me at this point to try and convince you of > > > this. I do believe you are fully entrenched in your vision of yourself and > > > your own rock solid storyline - and you have built an enormous safety net > > > of people who see only what you show them - the bliss bubble of the > > > positive characteristics you want to be known for. It's sad to watch. > > > > > > You placing me in a cult, because you were too afraid to be honest and > > > real, is predictable; as was your refusal to address it. Easier to just > > > forever claim you were "right" and relentlessly impose your reality on FFL > > > with no interest in supporting or discussing it. Another example is > > > continuing to invoke the term "wishing complete healing" on people and FFL > > > at large without ever clearly examining what that means - how dare anyone > > > challenge you on this meaningless term. Right? Also, on ousting Judy, Ann, > > > and raunchy from your readers' list and I'm guessing me, after this post, > > > if you have the guts to read it. So many other examples Share of your > > > refusing to actually interact with anyone who has tried, unless you are > > > sure you can control the outcome. > > > > > > But, you keep reading Barry, although he was a bit hard on you today, > > > don't you think? Just return to the innocent little girl stance and use a > > > "poo" extension for him....he did take a large poo today on you didn't he? > > > > > > Just throw us all away Share and keep putting us all down - we challenged > > > you on your reality and you are so shame-based deep down, that it is > > > simply > > > unacceptable. You must retain your vision of yourself at all costs, right? > > > I am sorry you are so shame-based. Of course it isn't your fault - you > > > didn't deserve whatever created this within, but you are responsible for > > > what you say and do and how you behave now. The only solution, as I said > > > before, is rigorous honesty. You don't need to exercise that here, but > > > don't forget that I know what I am talking about in this regard. > > > > > > Stop caring about what the other posters think about you. I've given up on > > > worrying about that myself. It's kind of freeing. I'd be mad at Judy too, > > > if I were you Share, just fyi. My ego would be upset. But, I would still > > > try to pay attention to what she was saying. She doesn't run away Share - > > > she puts herself out there consistently and without regard to the attacks > > > she might get in return. > > > > > > This is my final thought. I am going to let you go Share, in love and with > > > compassion. But, I will not forget the way that you treated me in > > > FFL-land. > > > However, I will "leave the door open" for you anytime you feel like > > > addressing me in any way you want. Keep smiling and throwing darts and > > > launching spiked spears for as long as it's working for you, even if it's > > > your whole life. You have another one coming, right? Emily. > > > > > >
