--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Michael Dean Goodman <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > THE STRUGGLE OF INDIVIDUALITY TO PERPETUATE ITS ILLUSION >
Hi Michael, it took me awhile to get around to reading this. Thanks again for a brilliantly written piece. You express yourself in words so well, as to give voice to my own heart. A couple of observations I've had, related to what you wrote: After my own awakening almost one year ago, I have found it comical, fascinating and humbling to realize the supports of my previous house of cards were downright incorrect. As you stated, I too have a strong relative intellect, but as I find increasingly, there are many folks with a stronger one, such as yourself. As this belief in my supposedly insurmountable relative intellect was a central tenet of my identity previously, to admit to this [not being 'number one'] then would've been crushing to my illusory individuality. Now I recognize it as a simple case of giving credit where credit is due (while laughing delightedly and often at my former assumptions). The other thing that struck me in your writing was the depth of your relationship with Maharishi. Though I agree with all that you have written regarding true bhakti, and your relationship with Maharishi, I was faced with a conundrum for many years, in that I truly wanted such a relationship with Maharishi, not necessarily in physical proximity, but on the level of Being. And it just wouldn't materialize. Instead I always felt drawn, and still do, to Guru Dev, and His incarnation as Shiva. This manifested completely before my awakening. And yet has quickly grown to fruition since, and I believe spurred the re-establishment of myself in my Self very rapidly. It also raises some interesting questions about the nature of surrender. Because the feeling is as real and uncompromising as if I live with Guru Dev; a distinct vibration and attunement, permeating and guiding every facet of my life. And yet, no way to explain to others how this is possible, with a Being who is no longer present on Earth in physical form. This obvious reality has just served to quietly refine my relationship with him. As I am sure you find with Maharishi, once surrender occurs, He is always available to you, whenever you call. With none of the artifice, phoniness, and drama that can be associated with a 'bhakti-lite' relationship. A perfect blending into everyday life. Thanks for creating an opportunity for me to share this. As a huge understatement, it is not everyday we have the chance to express such things. I look forward to your future writings. ------------------------ Yahoo! Groups Sponsor --------------------~--> Join modern day disciples reach the disfigured and poor with hope and healing http://us.click.yahoo.com/lMct6A/Vp3LAA/i1hLAA/UlWolB/TM --------------------------------------------------------------------~-> To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
