--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Peter <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > I'm with you on this one, Curtis. If celibacy comes > naturally, with no thought or strain, then fine. But > most people need to have sex and guess what, it has no > impact on your "evolution" at all. People can be so > unsimple and so un-natural in the TMO.
In my case that's a bit more complicated, so much so, that it feels quite frustrating to try to explain it in a foreign language. But I'd say it boils down to the fact that I'm a gynephobic heterosexual. Only recently I've realised the possible cause for my gynephobia in case the cause is something that's happened during this lifetime. The last time I was with a women, I noticed she was not at all satisfied with my "performance". I guess she could feel my tenseness or something. So, in my case staying /uurdhva-retas/ is not loosing much of intimacy. Anyhow, the main reason why I asked that was the fact that nowadays I often feel rather restless if I "keep it up" more than, say, 2 weeks, whereas when I was in my twenties, before I was initiated, I seem to recall that I could once do that for several weeks without feeling overly uneasy. On the other hand "brahmacarya" seems to have some physical and mental benefits, the weirdest of which is that the muscles in my legs seem to, well, grow somewhat. That's important for me because I'm rather self-conscious of not having that much muscles overall, except for the "love-muscle" the size of which I'm fairly satisfied with. -- Yikes! :) I'm not intending to try to become /uurdhva-retas/ for an extended time, but perhaps a month, or so, at a time would be reasonable. To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
