Re: [FairfieldLife] Recognition Is Liberation (was Re: Scandal hits

[Vaj]

On Oct 16, 2006, at 6:58 PM, jyouells2000 wrote: --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Peter <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: --- jyouells2000 [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: snip My experience is that the 'bound' self is built upon the unwillingness to be nothing, the fear of that... Sort of a continuous looking away. JohnY Brilliant(IMHO)!! The continuous looking away is also a continuous looking for a subjective "feeling" of self that affirms (falsely) that "I exist." The mind does this every few seconds in waking state. It's a very subtle egoic habit. You can see this habit in CC because the mind turns to find something to affirm itself and nothing, literally, is found instead. There is no longer a felt-sense of "I" to affirm individuality. There is, again, literally, nothing there to find but pure consciousness and pure consciousness is something that the mind can not comprehend. Around the age of 10 I started to have a lucid 'dream' where I had the subjective sensation of the my head expanding and expanding until all that was left was a tiny dot of bright light about to disapear in a boundless ocean of shimmering light/darkness. Then I would wake up terrified and shaking and calling for mom... maybe times a week for a couple of years. Years later while sitting and listening   to sama veda floating on that ocean the memories all came rolling back . That's the nice thing about the yoga-nidra state--you can access anything, including answers to many questions. I remember on my first dark retreat--I expected it to take several days before sensory deprivation kicked in (boy was I wrong) instead I was almost torn apart by kundalini completely awake at the third eye from the deceptively "simple" practice I'd been given. Eventually after I left the luminosity ground, I went through several bodies, eventually separating from the physical, but eventually rearrived in my physical room of complete darkness and silence--and the first thing that welled up was an unprocessed event from being trapped in a cave during college. It eventually subsided, but apparently all events with major juice in them boil off very quickly when you begin touching the Base. __._,_.___ To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Your email settings: Individual Email|Traditional Change settings via the Web (Yahoo! ID required) Change settings via email: Switch delivery to Daily Digest | Switch to Fully Featured Visit Your Group | Yahoo! Groups Terms of Use | Unsubscribe __,_._,___