--- In [email protected], TurquoiseB <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > --- In [email protected], Sal Sunshine <salsunshine@> > wrote: > > > > On May 3, 2007, at 2:37 PM, Kenny H wrote: > > > > > > Since we all already know who has no self control > > > > and who would thus (blessedly) take themselves out > > > > of the action within the first 24 to 36 hours of > > > > the week, this one now has my vote, too. > > > > > > > > > There was no need for you to make any reference to anyone > > > else-that is definitely you in the role of provocateur. > > > You could have said, simply: I vote for 35 posts per week. > > > > At least he didn't say, "some people..." > > You are both correct and I apologize. Part of it > is having not posted here for a couple of days > and logging on to find people still trashing me > *anyway*. Part of it is, in one case, having had > to endure this shit for TWELVE FUCKING YEARS. > > I think I've said almost anything that can be > said about the disdain I have for such people, > and for how essentially worthless I find them. > From now on, I'll try more to "walk my talk" > and just ignore anything they have to say, even > when it's about me. Especially when it's about > me. And mark my words...no matter how long I > do this, a lot of the nasty things they say will > *continue* to be about me. As Sal pointed out a > few days ago, it's an obsession on their parts. > You like Curtis and Sal are blind to the fact that when I react to your postings negatively, it is not to trash you or him or Sal as people, it is that you have insulted some things I hold dear, a spiritual path that you are choosing to see in a negative light, to go out of your way to have what I call "a Maharishi bashing slappy happy fest". Then I will respond to that. So it is not a blanket criticism of any of you as people. As many have said here before, I am sure that we could all meet over lunch or dinner and have a great time.
But here on FFL, there is an energy put out by you and others sometimes regarding Maharishi and Guru Dev that is not a reasoned exposition of their paths, and neutral criticism of it. No, it often has a nasty sort of tinge to it. Its clearly beyond saying "been there done that got the t-shirt and moved on". And that criticism then extends when challenged to the challengers, calling them True Believers and other sorts of labeling. Its frustrating, and impossible to have any sort of discussion with the deck so stacked against those like myself who may just see Maharishi as the rishi I believe he his. So the well has been poisoned by those criticizing and mocking Maharishi, and not the other way around. Having said all of that, I then began responding energetically to such negative posters, taking their negative energy and throwing it right back in their faces. Boomeranging. Just tuning into the energy like a radio station, and back atcha, mate. It hasn't made for a pleasant environment, though I thought it was an appropriate thing to do for awhile, just to expose the other side of the coin for myself, if no one else. See what the criticizers acted like when they were on the receiving end. And I got into it. I have tried to target my criticism to exactly that which I am critical of. Even so, I can see that it spawns more negative energy than I have intended. So I am more watchful about it now. It has been a learning process for me. And I don't mean in a vacuum. I have learned from some of your responses and Vaj's too. Sometimes when I am not just dancing with the energy here on FFL, I will reflect about your POV and his, and it has been helpful. Genuinely. Even when it gets down, dirty and personal, I have learned from it. My continuing and growing perception of our unity vs. our differences is tempering my impulse to just react to the negaitve energy here and create more of it in the process. We'll see where all of this goes next.
