--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Vaj <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > It's not necessarily a good thing to confuse future-self and present- > self.
See, this was part of the Awakening for me -- That Awakening to viscerally realize That is the container of time and space, of the illusion of evolution itself. Where it counts, time and space don't. As the I I had been identifying with grew ever closer to surrendering to the ever-present That, it became progressively more infuriated. It became more and more clear that That is realizable only on That's terms, not on the terms of the co-dependent arising llusion's. Obviously utter emptifulfillment lies in That, and only in That, and in the surrender of the illusion into That, but to enter That, I cannot be particularly special in That. I cannot be particularly unique in That. I cannot be particularly esoteric in That. I cannot have "achieved" anything at all in That. I can only be utterly ordinary in That, so unspeakably ordinary as to be as ungraspable as That Thatself. This emptifulfillment was rightly seen as a death-wound to (and by) the codependent arising illusion. In His paradoxical embodiment of the sublime and the ridiculous, the divine and the demonic, the special and the ordinary, MMY dealt me the coup-de-grace, but His sword was so sharp that I had time to walk away, time to weep and rage at the exquisite agony, before my head fell off. Not the Teaching I expected, not the Awakening I imagined, but instead, the coup de grace -- the Cut of Grace. That's what severed the outward- reaching ties of body, prana, mind, and Soul. The Cut of Grace, the Graceful Cut. He had the Grace to put me out of my misery. :-)
