Turq, I always am surprised at the force of your words as they impact my POV. I thought I had you nailed, but the below shows me your complexities -- you stand up for yourself very well, Bub. Not that I wish I were as "hard off the trail and brooking no nonsense until the horse is fed" as you. You're a spiritual Marlboro Man. An icon of free will even if it gives you psychic cancer from smoking down to a glowing nub those lily white skinny ass newbie sticks.
Turq the Flamer, Scorcher of the Assumptives! The Zen Taxi Driver who says in the mirror, "Are you puking at me? Are you puking at me?" Maybe all of us have to have a "button" we wear that tells newbies "Don't tread on me," or "I'll sop up any of your drivel as long as you don't call me on my drivel" or "Whatever you say to me will be my reason to change the subject to _________." But who would put honest warnings on their buttons, eh? Mine would be: "I'll be your best friend until you make a bad movie recommendation." Sigh..... Bronte, Turq's like grits or poi -- substantial fare but not the preferred starch in many astral regions. To me he tastes like potatoes just like frog legs taste like chicken. Edg --- In [email protected], TurquoiseB <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > --- In [email protected], Duveyoung <no_reply@> wrote: > > > > Turq, > > > > About the Bronte thing, I resonate!! I agree with your concepts. > > > > But, but, but.....Turq, I know I test your patience. I wish I were > > better at this "friend of Turq" business. > > > > Okay, here it comes....take a deep breath. > > > > Geeze, you lost it, and you're not feeling any need to explain or > > apologize or deal with it, eh? > > Not a bit. I have a low tolerance for certain acts. > > > Hee hee. Now, that said, if it were a contest, I'd say you come in > > second place to me for "bad reactions" -- I win! As proof, I offer > > my posts regarding the word "liar." > > > > You're certainly one of the good guys here -- your great wisdom is > > shown by the delicacy of your perceptions and the nuances seen in > > your creative writing -- I bow, man, you know I bow to your > > manifestations. > > > > But, you know that Bronte is a newbie who hasn't read your many many > > posts about gurus, and well, you unloaded on her without pointing > > out who you actually are, again and again if necessary > > To the contrary, I wrote a long, compassionate post > pointing out exactly who I was, in response to having > been taken for something else because (as far as I > can tell) all she can see around her is what she > projects there. I'm sorry, Edg, but right now, with > my move to Spain and reinventing my life yet again > and all, I just don't feel I've got the time to waste > on people with whom the conversation goes sorta like > this: > > Person1: All you people who believe A, B and C are > so clueless. Why aren't you more like me who believes > X, Y and Z? > > Person2: Excuse me? I think you've mistaken me for > someone else. I do NOT believe in A, B and C. I walked > away from A, B and C probably before you ever got > involved with it. I'm really sorry for you that you > now feel so badly about your involvement with A, B > and C and that you seem to have some baggage associ- > ated with it, but I don't. It was an E-ticket roller > coaster ride for me, and I enjoyed both the ups and > the downs. Now, like you, I tend to resonate more > with X and Y, although I think that Z is merely a > manifestation of ego and not terribly productive. > > Person1: Hey Turq and all you other A, B and C believers > out there, listen to this rant about how deluded you > A, B and C lovers are... > > Sorry...complete waste of time. When and if she catches > a clue I'll come out to play, but not until. > > My reaction may be colored by having been stalked on > this and other forums for *decades* by people around > whom I just can't say shit without them jumping in and > trying to suck me into a head-to-head argument with > them. I'm just fuckin' tired of it. I've wasted far > too much of my time dealing with these insecure energy > suckers, and right now I'm more into saving my energy > for more productive things. > > If they get all hurt, tough. I'm through "playing nice" > with people who -- again, as far as I can tell -- just > want to suck energy and attention. I like playing with > folks who give as much as they take, who bring some- > thing positive to the table, and aren't just simple > contrarians. I *love* interacting with you, with Rick, > with Curtis, with Marek, with lurk and Alex, and with > many others here, because you all put energy back into > the system. You've all been around the block and, no > matter how you might rag on things from time to time, > you all take the time to praise and celebrate the > things that make you smile as well. That's a pretty > big indicator to me that someone has gotten past the > "me" stage of life and is dwelling more in the "we" > stage. > > I'm no Mother Teresa or selfless saint. I've spent > too many years on these forums trying to "get through" > to people whose idea of a good time seems to be head- > to-head arguments and/or trolling for attention. Now > I just write them off. If they later begin to post > more interesting stuff and I feel like responding to > it, I will, and the past will be dust...I will try > my best to not remember it and not base my present > on remembered past behavior. But lately I've become > very, very aware of time and how it just keeps tickin' > away, and I'm not willing to waste much more of it. > > If this seems harsh to you, so be it. I'm just so > TIRED of people telling me on these forums that I > have to "justify" what I say because they don't like > it. If they don't like it, TOUGH BEANS. They are free > to write whole *novels* about how awful or untruthful > or inane or deluded my opinions are, and I would not > for a moment try to stop them from doing so. > > But I don't have to respond to them. These days I try > to only respond to the things that give me something > fun to play with, mentally or verbally. Or that give > me an opportunity to crack a dumb joke. But I'm just > not turned on by these long head-to-head-somebody's- > got-to-"win" encounters that a few people seem to > live for. Let them have those conversations with other > people, who believe that they'll live forever and > that the time they spend in those arguments will seem > worth it to them as they're dying. I've done enough > soul-searching and self-analysis to know that when my > time comes, having missed a few arguments with people > I don't even know on the Internet is just not gonna > be one of the things I'll think on as "lost oppor- > tunities" or look on with any kind of regret. :-) >
