Re: Update on TeeCee

[Nina]

Steph, Please don't crawl into that hole.  I understand how you feel, it's just awful that this is happening.  I'm not saying you should cheer up or anything as idiotic as that, but try to use the time you have with Tee Cee to share your love and be as optimistic as you can.  Tell him how much he reminds you of Alphie, how you love him the same way.  Tell him what a privilege it is that he's chosen you to show him what love can be like.   I've been told that our loved ones don't want us to suffer over their suffering, and that makes sense to me.  I know it's hard, I know it's unfair!  I also know the desperate, hopeless feeling that comes when you've tried everything and nothing is working.  Have faith that even if the worst happens, his life has been enriched through knowing you, he has someone who loves him, someone who desperately wants him to stay, someone who will love him enough to let him go, if that's what has to be, in order to end his suffering.  I don't know if you believe the same, but I believe everything happens for a reason, maybe he's chosen you because you possess the compassion to fill his crossing with love.  It never gets easier, and it truly stinks. I hope I haven't upset you, or offended you in any way.  I can't help but speak from my heart.  One of my FeLV babies, Jazz, has been failing this last week.  I too have tried everything I can think of and she's not responding.  I have an appointment with my internist on Monday, to see if there's anything else that can be done.  So, you see, I've been sitting here in the dark, contemplating all this myself.  My prayers and thoughts are with you and Tee Cee.  Miracles do happen, a miracle could happen for you and Tee Cee. Much love, Nina Stephanie E Caldwell wrote: Nina,   The vet doesn’t recommend treatment because he’s not producing blood anymore, so we’re just prolonging suffering in her eyes. I just purchased a supplement that’s supposed to help emmensley with FELV+ kitties and make their immune systems work again. I talked to a vet who strongly believes in it today. It’s called Transfer Factor. If he can hang on until Tuesday then we’ll see how that works.   I don’t feel like an angel right now. I feel like crawling into a hole. This kitty reminds me of my Alphie, I lost her in December to surgery complications after having her for 13 years. Same look, personality. He’s solid white and she had a few black patches. It’s just so very hard to lose him and be so powerless to do anything. He’s on drugs and liquid food, but there’s just nothing that seems to be helping.   Steph   -----Original Message----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED]] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Sunday, April 03, 2005 3:17 AM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: Update on TeeCee   Oh Stephanie, I'm sorry TeeCee's prognosis looks so grim.  The vet didn't think a blood transfusion would buy him time to try some of the things the list suggested?  I'm sorry for what the two of you are going through, but you're an angel on earth to come to his rescue and give him the opportunity to be loved.  My thoughts and prayers are with you. Nina Stephanie E Caldwell wrote: Well, I ended up at the Animal ER tonight with TeeCee and the news was not good. He has a severly low white count and is severely anemic. He has the type of anemia where his bone marrow isn’t producing red blood cells. Otherwise he looks fine on his blood work. I brought him home to pursue alternative treatments and so he can be with me when he passes. He came home with ulcer meds (he’s got huge ulcers in his mouth), pain meds (as needed, will slow the heart and shorten his life), and liquid diet. He also has a severe heart murmur and is dehydrated.   Thanks for trying guys, Steph