Re Recent losses

[anzajaguar]

In a message dated 5/28/2005 10:57:14 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time, [EMAIL PROTECTED] writes: As to the ashes thing.  I never walked in there with any hope really.  Not in my situation.  My fear is that since this was my first experience at this vet, I will have a negative connotation with it even though I really like them.  I think I am dreading the sorrowful "looks" and maybe you're right.  I am being weird about getting him before work and leaving him in my car all day.  Ok, I know he isn't going to be "hurt" sitting out there since it isn't really him anymore but still.  And I'm afraid I will get all upset and then go into work, again, crying!  But on the other hand I do want to get him home, like Tonya said.  This is where he belongs. Jamie Oh Jamie, thank you...I understand...as far as you not wanting to leave him in the car all day...I was the same way..I was out with my mom when I picked Akira up.....it would have been easier to pick her remains up on the way..but then she would have been in the car all day while we were out..and I couldn't stand the thought of it.So I picked them up on the way home....   When I went into the office to get her (it was a week after her passing) they handed me her box..it was a very nice hand carved wooden box...I was ok....then I asked about getting some meds for Indy...and while I was waiting the girl and I were talking about Akira, and how everyone there loved them so much..even though we had only been going to that office shortly (Ive been seeing the vet for years now..but she just bought her own office..and the techs and peeps allready worked there)   I asked about the paw print Michelle (the vet) had mentioned.....and if it was in the box as well..the girl said no...I can believe I almost forgot..then she took it out and handed it to me..it was in another separate container with others (so many..it was so sad)  so I unwrapped it, and that's when I lost it....it was so precious, so small, so thoughtfull....it was a little round white clay with her paw print in it.....you could even make out the details of her "paw lines"..it was so tiny.....so so tiny...and they had pressed her name above it,a nd there was a pink ribbon at the top....then as they brought Indy's medicine out they brought out a book too....it was a photo album that one of the other clients had left, with a picture of their beautiful departed kitty on the front, and on the inside were their kitties picture with a small note,a nd a little dogs picture with a small note, and then teh third one there was Akira's picture, with and empty space beside it and they wanted me to write something....I was shocked, it was so special, so wonderful...I lost it agian....just looking at the pic of her they had put in there for me...it was one of the ones I had given them a few days before she passed..it is a close up of her face,  while she was outside one of her last times, sitting in the grass.....so peacefull, so happy, so at home...she was so wonderful...so special...   Im sorry guys, I didn't mean to go on and on agian....its just still so hard....and..when I have a moment..I have a BIG one....Thanks for listening     Lisa and fur-brats Akira--now in Spirit at the Rainbow Bridge www.geocities.com/anzajaguar Indy-- Truley Indian Jones as a cat..FEARLESS Lance- Mini wire haired dashchund Bow-Tie- 2yr old (ssshhhh he doesnt know he is 15 :) ) jack russel cross Bennie Bird-- Vampire cockatiel Anza-- sexist Senegal parrot..deffinantly a ladies bird :)