RE: CLS - for Patti

[MacKenzie, Kerry N.]

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Dear Patti   You have been through so much with your beloved cats--much, much more than me--that I would never presume to persuade you not to do what you absolutely need to do for you.   But I can't help hoping that when you've had time out for you, time to smell the roses, time to regain your energy, recharge the batteries, that maybe you will eventually reconsider.....   It's angels like you that restore faith in humanity when we despair that-- to borrow the phrase of another listmember last week--the whole world has gone to hell in a handbasket.   There are so few willing to work on behalf of needy animals that it would just be so sad for them to lose you too, especially when the reason for them losing you is someone who has caused them great harm. It's a double whammy for the cats---they suffer through this other person, and then they lose you too.   But I understand that you are in a very difficult place right now. And you need to look after you, first and foremost--that goes without saying.   Sudden, awful thought---I hope you'll stay on the list?! You're such a very special person who has done so much for so many years for cats in need and I for one can't bear the thought of you going off-list. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.   Wish I could give you a big hug---so sending you zillions of cyberhugs instead. love and hugs, Kerry       -----Original Message----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of [EMAIL PROTECTED] Sent: Thursday, August 25, 2005 12:44 AM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: CLS Belinda,   Regretfully, will you add dear, sweet, little Ellen to the CLS as deceased. 8/24/05.   She just "gave up" late yesterday, and all I could do was hold her in my arms thru the night, whispering reassurances to her that although all 1.3 lbs. of her put up such a brave, determined effort to "fight", it was okay for her to go to sleep and join the other fur-angels. She had earned her "wings".  She  passed, quietly in my arms during the early morning hours.   I am completely devastated with losing her..... Such a sweet, tiny little baby, but she's struggled so hard to stay alive. She tried so hard, she had a determined spirit for such a frail baby. But she was just so small, so innocent. She just didn't have the strength to fight anymore, and it was heartbreaking to look in her eyes & realize she'd just given up. For the short time she was with me, she definitely stole a big piece of my heart...........   What a cruel fate, such an awful death, for her & all the others that died senselessly because of the irresponsibility of her "supposed" rescuer. Yes, they were "spared" the horror of the gas chamber, but for all these innocents to die such a "horrible" death due to the "transport from hell", I wonder which fate would have been the lesser of the two evils.......   The heartbreak of all this is also NOT knowing how many other innocents died from exposure to the still "UNKNOWN KILLER" of the transported cats, all due to the failure of the person doing the transport to be upfront & honest with all of us involved. And also how many cats are STILL at risk because the while truth hasn't been told??? Also, her sheer DISREGARD for the lives of these babies by basically just cramming the 20+ cats into a small vehicle, UNVETTED WITH NO PAPERWORK from the shelter, mixing litters, crammed into carriers & the cardboard "temporary" carriers, like sardines, without food, water or even a damn litterbox for the long ride , non-stop, from Georgia to Pa., on one of the hottest, most humid days,then to Ohio, then to N.Y., then finally back to HER home in Pa. (a 2 bedroom townhouse, in which she already is housing 50 (Yes, FIFTY!!!), of her own cats!!!!   AND, as if things couldn't be any worse, this was her SECOND large transport from the SAME SHELTER in a two week period!!   How in the hell could this be allowed to happen??? This woman is NOT A RESCUER, BUT A MURDEROUS COLLECTOR!!!   I apologize for my harshness, I am NOT an evil person.... But I am over-ridden with grief & guilt.  If I had been able to think that afternoon, I should have called The Adams Co. SPCA to the scene, but I just did not have my "wits" together......Regrets, I am having a VERY difficult time DEALING w/ the reality & gravity of the horror!   The SENSELESS loss of so many lives, the unknown number of other innocents that are now in danger.....   Right now, I would like to put this woman in the trunk of a small car on a hot, humid day, drive 600-700 miles, and then "toss" her in a gas chamber...   I do not mean to offend anyone on this list. God knows, I love you all and you all have been such a wonderful, supportive, compassionate group of people, no doubt this list has always been my favorite due to the fact of the "closeness" & support. So, please forgive me, but I NEEDED TO VENT!!! I am totally heartbroken and have lost faith in what RESCUE is supposed to be about... I always believed it meant "saving" the innocents, NOT killing them.  After this, I think it's time I just throw in the towel. My heart is broken, to the point I am saying hateful things. It's time to quit. Patti         Mayer, Brown, Rowe & Maw LLP has moved its Chicago office to Hyatt Center, 71 S. Wacker Drive, Chicago, Illinois 60606. Email addresses, telephone numbers, and facsimile numbers remain unchanged. For more information, click the link below or copy / paste the link into the address bar of your Web browser: http://www.mayerbrownrowe.com/chicago/move.asp Please Note: Some administrative functions will be located at 230 S. LaSalle, Chicago IL, 60604. IRS CIRCULAR 230 NOTICE. Any advice expressed above as to tax matters was neither written nor intended by the sender or Mayer, Brown, Rowe & Maw LLP to be used and cannot be used by any taxpayer for the purpose of avoiding tax penalties that may be imposed under U.S. tax law. 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