Hi, my beloved George whom I rescued two month ago crossed
the bridge yesterday – he had a very labored breathing for the past few
days, the vet felt that he was having a hard time overcoming URI due to the
compromised immune system from FIV – he had been so well, he had a very
good appetite.. but he never could really gain weight. He was very
jaundiced and yellow ness did not really go away,, but he was doing so
good..though,, Since he is a feral boy,, I really did not want to stress him
out taking him to a vet all the time…..though. I did sense the his last
days might have been approaching as I felt that it must have been painful to
breath so heavily.. and he was getting so skinny regardless of his
appetite…the vet thought that his throat was very inflamed, and was going
to call him the first thing yesterday morning to see if I could give him
predisone… but he did not make it - I must have know that something was going to happen that
morning, because I couldn’t sleep since 4 am that day..I was so nervous
and was wide awake, kept thinking of George… I would go check the room
and see how he was doing.. and would go back (he would get stressed more if I
were around since he is a feral boy).. so I would go back,, one time, I heard
really loud breathing, and I saw him trying to eat the food from the plate.. so
I wanted to leave him alone so he could eat.. so I did.. and an half hour later
or an hour.. I went back into the room.. and I did not hear his breathing noise
in the room.. I got so scared… and I looked around..and called his
name..and he was lying on the floor by the food plate with his eyes and
mouth open.. and I ran over to him and held him… he was still warm.. but
he had passed already.. I cried and cried and held him, and I wrapped him with
a blanket.. and put him on the table by the window…. He looked so painful
with his eyes and mouth were open.. and I wish that they weren’t.. but then,
an interesting thing happened.. I went back to visit George by the window in
the room an half hour later .. and this time.. his eyes and mouth were completely
closed and he looked so peaceful.. looked like he was just sleeping..with no
more pain… I have lots of regrets for thing I have done or I haven’t
done for George.. things that I would regret for the rest of my lives and
things that ended up shortening his lives and things that I would never forgive
myself for.. but. I talked to Jasmine, my AC this morning and she talked to
George for me.. and I still feel very sad, but I also feel very peaceful.
George is doing fabulous right now, he said... he is a little sad.. but he is
feeling very good. We talked about a lot of things.. but at the end he
told me that.. don’t think that he is just a little helpless cat,, he is
much more.. especially now,, he is free, and he can be an advisor for me --- as
I do have a tendency to try to control every situation I encounter.. and I beat
up myself when I can’t for..so anyway, he gave me some advise which I
found very very helpful to continue my life.. George said that he would like to meet me again,, probably
not in my life time… I left the conversation, asking him that if he would
talk to me again.. and he said yes.. I told him that I love him and will miss
him very much…. And at the end,, he told me that he loves me, too….
George has been always a little feral boy.. and it meant the world to me to
know that he loves me….I buried him at his favorite spot in the garden..
the place he used to hang out… Thank for all the prayers you have given for George in the
past… now George has passed..please pray that George will be continue to
be happy, and continue to have a good life and that some day…I will meet
him soon. Hideyo |
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