I'm so sorry, Hideyo, my prayers are for George's continued happiness and
for you also. Blessings, Gloria
At 11:49 AM 9/7/2005, you wrote:
Hi, my beloved George whom I rescued two month ago crossed the bridge
yesterday he had a very labored breathing for the past few days, the vet
felt that he was having a hard time overcoming URI due to the compromised
immune system from FIV he had been so well, he had a very good
appetite.. but he never could really gain weight. He was very jaundiced
and yellow ness did not really go away,, but he was doing so
good..though,, Since he is a feral boy,, I really did not want to stress
him out taking him to a vet all the time
..though. I did sense the his
last days might have been approaching as I felt that it must have been
painful to breath so heavily.. and he was getting so skinny regardless of
his appetite
the vet thought that his throat was very inflamed, and was
going to call him the first thing yesterday morning to see if I could give
him predisone
but he did not make it -
I must have know that something was going to happen that morning, because
I couldnt sleep since 4 am that day..I was so nervous and was wide awake,
kept thinking of George
I would go check the room and see how he was
doing.. and would go back (he would get stressed more if I were around
since he is a feral boy).. so I would go back,, one time, I heard really
loud breathing, and I saw him trying to eat the food from the plate.. so I
wanted to leave him alone so he could eat.. so I did.. and an half hour
later or an hour.. I went back into the room.. and I did not hear his
breathing noise in the room.. I got so scared
and I looked around..and
called his name..and he was lying on the floor by the food plate with his
eyes and mouth open.. and I ran over to him and held him
he was still
warm.. but he had passed already.. I cried and cried and held him, and I
wrapped him with a blanket.. and put him on the table by the window
. He
looked so painful with his eyes and mouth were open.. and I wish that they
werent.. but then, an interesting thing happened.. I went back to visit
George by the window in the room an half hour later .. and this time.. his
eyes and mouth were completely closed and he looked so peaceful.. looked
like he was just sleeping..with no more pain
I have lots of regrets for thing I have done or I havent done for
George.. things that I would regret for the rest of my lives and things
that ended up shortening his lives and things that I would never forgive
myself for.. but. I talked to Jasmine, my AC this morning and she talked
to George for me.. and I still feel very sad, but I also feel very
peaceful. George is doing fabulous right now, he said... he is a little
sad.. but he is feeling very good. We talked about a lot of things.. but
at the end he told me that.. dont think that he is just a little helpless
cat,, he is much more.. especially now,, he is free, and he can be an
advisor for me --- as I do have a tendency to try to control every
situation I encounter.. and I beat up myself when I cant for..so anyway,
he gave me some advise which I found very very helpful to continue my life..
George said that he would like to meet me again,, probably not in my life
time
I left the conversation, asking him that if he would talk to me
again.. and he said yes.. I told him that I love him and will miss him
very much
. And at the end,, he told me that he loves me, too
. George has
been always a little feral boy.. and it meant the world to me to know that
he loves me
.I buried him at his favorite spot in the garden.. the place
he used to hang out
Thank for all the prayers you have given for George in the past
now
George has passed..please pray that George will be continue to be happy,
and continue to have a good life and that some day
I will meet him soon.
Hideyo
