Dear Michelle I can totally relate to the "blubbering wreck" business. (That's why I avoided going back to vet for Caramel and Levi's ashes and had them sent to me instead--I knew what would happen minute I walked thru the vet's door.) So believe me you're not alone! It would have been more surprising if you hadn't broken down--the association and memories for you were very strong, and it's still so recent that you lost your little Bramble (now I'm in tears too!).
It's not surprising that you're so keenly observant now of Buddy and Minstrel. (Lucky kitties--unlike many so pets, they will never suffer in silence because you're so attuned to their normal behavior that you notice the second something seems different.) I know if I were you I'd be doing the same thing--having Buddy tested. I have no experience of seizures (tho the mad behavior you describe does ring bells -- I've seen mine behave like that and it did alarm me too, but as it didn't last I just put it down to "crazy cat" behavior). Others on the list will weigh in I'm sure. Praying it's not as you fear, but if it is, you know we're all here for you. And Buddy couldn't be in better hands. Let us know what happens when you have time, Michelle. love and hugs to you and Buddy and Minstrel, Kerry ----- Original Message ----- From: <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> To: <Felvtalk@felineleukemia.org> Sent: Wednesday, September 21, 2005 9:54 AM Subject: Vet Visit > I had to take Buddy to the vet on Monday. She has Gingivitis and needs dental op - she is booed in next Monday. I was ok going to the vet and didn't expect what I was to feel when I went in the door. The second I walked through the door I just had some subconscious reaction and started to tremble and could not stop crying (felt a fool trying to talk to the vet as a blumbering wreck). The whole day of losing Bramble came flooding back and thats why I was crying - not because of Buddy - it was strange. > > Sanctuary have Buddy as FIV+ though I'm trying to determine how old she was when they tested her. I am going to ask for an FeLV test as I am a little suspicious. I hope I am wrong but as you know she has lived with Minstrel (FeLV+) all her time in sanctuary and now continues living with her with me too - they are inseperable. Both are 2 and a half years old so her symptoms are starting very early if it is just FIV. Her teeth are in very bad condition too for a cat her age - we know her age is certain though as she was born in the sanctuary. > > I pray that I'm also wrong on this one but having seen seizures in my cats I think she has started having complex partial seizures too. This has only happened since Bramble's passing and I know trauma can trigger them but so can FeLV and FIV. She has started showing strange behaviour in that she darts as if she is spooked and appears to be watching and chasing something but there is nothing - but yesterday when she did it - as she dived on the cat tree scratching I saw the rippling of the spine very breifly. This mad behaviour has happened a few times over last 2 weeks and at first I thought she was just having her mad moments which she does but there is something a bit odd about these mad moments and she looked a little confused afterwards so will have to study more carefully to check her pupils etc... She isn't knocking into anything though when she is darting about which is a promising sign. > Michelle, Minstrel, Buddy & Angel Bramble > > >
