Janine,
I am sorry to hear about MacKenzie, it is so hard and hurts so much, be strong for him, he needs you now.
Cherie
janine paton <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
janine paton <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
Hi all,
I'm going through this same thing and am so grateful
for all the experience and calmness on this subject.
And Nina, I don't feel so crazy since reading how you
are feeling the same way.
My cat MacKenzie is not positive, but he is dying.
His breathing is mostly quieter now, but very shallow.
He's not hiding at all but has picked a spot on our
bedroom floor under a window. He's stopped eating,
and stopped drinking too I think. He can't really
walk more than one or two steps.
My husband and I had this strong feeling that at least
for now he wants to be here but it's a little tough to
sit with.
MacKenzie has been a homeopathic patient for the 3
yrs he's been with us, so that's how were handling it
for now too.
Janine
Nina <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>wrote:
> My Beloved Group,
> First of all, I'm sorry I haven't been able to
> participate fully in the
> group this last couple of weeks. I love you all,
> but for the last
> couple of days, I haven't even been able bring
> myself to read the
> posts. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted by
> Grace and my last
> efforts to bring her back to health. Yesterday, I
> finally resigned
> myself to thinking of our time together as 'death
> bed vigil'. Those of
> you that know me, know that I pray all your babies
> are safe and healthy,
> and those that are losing, or have lost the battle;
> my love is with
> you. I don't know what I would have done without
> the love and support
> of this group. You have been a Godsend to me and my
> sweet fur angels.
>
> Yesterday morning Gracie "told" me she does not want
> to stay. Among
> other signs, I was syringe feeding her and she
> refused to swallow. I'm
> trying my best to make peace with her decision. I
> know you understand.
> She hasn't eaten on her own for a long time now and
> she's skin and
> bones. She spent a nice peaceful day, and I did my
> best to just "be
> with her". During the afternoon she made it clear
> that she didn't want
> to be sung to, or touched. It's so hard on me to
> watch her pull away.
> At one point, she seemed a bit agitated so I ground
> up a tiny bit of
> Valium and gave it to her in water. She was so
> relaxed she even did a
> stretch-semi roll out on the patio in the sun. She
> did something that
> startled me, and got my hopes up again. (I just
> can't stop believing in
> miracles). I was giving the dogs treats and she was
> laying on the
> couch. Well, we have this thing Grace and I.
> Whenever the dogs get
> treats she'd come bounding over the barrier and
> expect one too. When
> she saw me giving the dogs treats this afternoon,
> she jumped off the
> couch. I started to cry, because I thought, there's
> no way she's going
> to take a treat. I put one in front of her anyway
> and you could have
> knocked me over with a sigh. It took her a minute
> to decide to eat it,
> but she not only ate that one, but 3 more. Then she
> ate 3 or 4 pieces
> of kibble! My hopes were short lived though.
>
> I've been up with her most of the night. She still
> doesn't want my
> attention. She doesn't even want me to look at her,
> it's breaking my
> heart to say goodbye, and I guess it may be making
> it harder for her to
> go, although that is not my intention. It's not
> like I don't want her
> to leave her body, I do. I want her suffering to be
> over. Yesterday,
> when I knew it was time, I called my Internist's
> office to see if Dr.
> Ortega would be willing to help her cross. Grace
> has always liked Dr.
> Ortega, and I thought she would be calmest with her.
> Well, my Internist
> isn't going to be in the office until Friday. It
> doesn't seem possible
> that Grace will still be here by then. My stance
> has always been, that
> when I know it's the end, when I know that the
> chance of a recovery
> after treatment isn't possible, then it's time to
> help them cross. Even
> though Grace is peaceful, (she just lays on her side
> and breathes
> shallow, but relaxed breaths), I have a hard time
> letting nature take
> it's course. It's arrogant of me, but I can't stand
> seeing her like
> this. I'm also so worried about her being in pain,
> when I look in her
> eyes, she doesn't seem in pain, but she doesn't seem
> like herself
> either. I wouldn't mind vacant, but it's almost
> like she's... not quite
> angry, more like annoyed to still be here.
>
> Just to let you know... Over the past week or so, I
> think I may have
> mentioned it, we've been following an extensive
> homeopathic regime with
> the help of a practitioner named Darla Palmer.
> While it didn't save
> Grace, it did bring her back into her body, and for
> brief glorious
> moments, back to me. It was such a joy to see the
> Grace I know and love
> shining out of her eyes again.
>
> Anyway, here's my question: Can anyone tell me how
> difficult it is to
> put an animal to sleep in an emaciated condition?
> Of course, I don't
> want to make things harder on her, I want to ease
> her suffering. What
> if they can't find a vein, because they're so small?
> I just want to
> know what to expect. I'm thinking of calling a
> house call vet to see if
> he can come today, but I don't want this to be
> harder on Grace. I'm
> still struggling with the thought that my underlying
> motives might be to
> make things easier on me. I just want to do what's
> right for Grace. My
> judgement is clouded, my mind and heart are clouded
> as well. I don't
> even have the energy to read this post over to see
> if it makes sense.
> Thanks for always caring,
> Nina
>
>
>
Have a purrfect day
Cherie
