Re: Second guesses...

[Terri Brown]

Don't second guess yourself.  You did what you thought was best.  Pilling a cat is always stressful, which can make them worse.  You did the best you could with the resources you had at the time.   Don't beat yourself up.  Paassht knows you loved her.  You did her a kindness by letting her go.   Brenda is with her now.  And all of our beloved furangels.  She won't lack company.   We all understand how you feel.  We all have been there.  Wondering if we could have/should have done more.  But we do what we can.   Paassht had a wonderful life with you.  She had with you something she may not have had otherwise, and no one could have loved her like you did.  Hold on to that.   Terri in NJ   =^..^= Terri, Siggie the Tomato Vampire, Guinevere, Sammi, Travis, Dori and 6 furangels: RuthieGirl, Samantha, Arielle, Gareth, Alec & Salome' =^..^=   Furkid Photos! http://mysite.verizon.net/vze7sgqa/ My Personal Page: http://www.geocities.com/ruthiegirl1/terrispage.html?1083970447350 ----- Original Message ----- From: Becca DuBose To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Sent: Thursday, March 02, 2006 5:36 PM Subject: Second guesses... I suppose it's normal to second guess every choice, everything I did or didn't do. Starting with the reading I should have done months if not years ago.  Paassht developed Horner's syndrome in October 2004.  I read today that this may be a sign of mediastinal lymphoma (http://maxshouse.com/Oncology/feline_lymphoma_and_leukemias.htm).  Paassht was a very active cat - we frequently remarked upon her "eternal kittenhood" - and she was still very healthy at that time with no other signs of illness. I've been agonizing over not giving her a dose of prednisone (prescribed by her regular vet on Monday) on Monday night.  I was going to wait until Tuesday because I thought she'd had enough stress for one day.  I also wasn't sure I could safely give her a pill, even a tiny half tablet.  I just can't stop wondering if it could have had any effect on the fluid buildup. Add to that some regrets over taking her somewhere unfamiliar, to a doctor who didn't really know her.  They offered to call our regular vet and now I wish I'd had them do so.  I would feel much better knowing her regular doctor concurred. Becca Missing Paassht http://paassht.blogspot.com/