Aww honey, I'm so sorry about what the two of you are going through. I
had tears running down my face reading your post. The connection of
love and communication you share with your Allie is so obvious. This
is such a hard time, we have all been there, it's so hard to say
goodbye, even when we know it's the kindest, most loving thing to do.
Do your best to stay in the moment with her. Talk to her and tell her
how grateful you are to have her in your life, tell her about all the
things you've learned and of course how much you love her. Don't worry
about drying your tears in front of her, she understands. Think about
all the wonderful souls waiting on the other side anxious to greet her,
let her know that you will be okay, sad, but okay. That very soon all
her earthly troubles will be over, soon she'll be healthy again chasing
heavenly butterflies with all our cherished kitties on the other side.
Much love to you, my thoughts and prayers are with you both,
Nina
Jennifer Ross wrote:
I honestly never understood what you all meant by you will know
when it is time, but it's true, our cats do have a way of telling us
(this is the first sick cat I have ever cared for, so this is a totally
new experience for me all around...). Allie has rapidly been declining
over the past few days despite treatments. Her temp just keeps
climbing (it's now up to 107.1 this am) and she has completely stopped
eating and drinking. She growls every time I try to give her any kind
of medication or treatment. I truly believe that this is her way of
telling me she does not want anymore. Allie has never liked vets,
needles, or even oral meds, so I know that taking daily antibotics and
frequent injections and sq fluids has probably been very rough on her.
I also feel that at this point she is suffering and I do not want that
for her. I think she's trying to tell me it's her time- she's tired
and she just can't fight anymore. Unfortunately I think we found the
FELV and FIV relatively end stage and with both viruses, her body is
just very run down. Right now she has no spunk- just lies around in
one spot all day hiding - barely even has the energy to purr. That is
not my Allie cat! It is killing me to see her suffer and I am now
content that I understand what she is trying to tell me. So,
unfortunately, I have to make the hardest decision that any pet mommy
and cat lover has to make. I am going to spend tonight with my baby
girl and if God does not take her on His own, I am going to help her
cross the bridge tomorrow. I have never had to make such a difficult
decision in my life and I bless you and feel the pain of each and every
one of you that have had to make this same decision before. However, I
know it is the right thing to do. I have told her that it's OK to go,
I just want her to be happy and not suffer anymore, and ever since I
told her that she has been purring more and not hiding as much- it's as
if she's at peace now. That's helping me know that I am making the
right decision. Please remember my little one tonight and tomorrow
afternoon at 4pm when I say good-bye. She has lived a long (10 yrs)
good and happy life. She deserves only to be happy. Thank you for
everything. I don't know what I would have done without all of you.
Jen and Allie
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