RE: I killed Grayson

[Chris]

Tonya, I don’t believe that you killed him—kittens, no matter how small, contend with the pile of kittens when they all nuzzle against their mom and when mom moves around..  They do get around more then you think.  It was an uphill battle with Grayson—he was so very young.  You did the very best for him and he died nuzzled up against a warm caring being who loved him—for that you should feel good.   Chris [EMAIL PROTECTED] -----Original Message----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of catatonya Sent: Tuesday, July 18, 2006 5:59 AM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: I killed Grayson   I just woke and Grayson was dead.  I think I smothered him.  I think 2:30 was the last time he woke me up to be fed.  I had him up by my neck but remember finding him sleeping down next to me at one point and moving him back up.  I guess it didn't cross my mind at the time that he should have been screaming for food at that point.  I just moved him back up higher on the bed and covered him in his little towel and fell back asleep.  When I woke again I wondered why he hadn't cried yet or moved over to my neck.  He was dead because I had killed him.   tonya